i'm old-skool. i play retro games (Mario Bros. & The Legend of Zelda), listen to 90's music, and watch classic movies (1945's A Time To Remember, 1980's Don Bluth animations, the original Annie The Movie, etc.). i've replayed most of Mario/Zelda games over 6 times respectively, and i think the current hiphop music is crap.
i'm anal about my stuffs. i organize my clothes based on style, sleeves-length, and colors. i arrange my books alphabetically or by height. i put my CDs in order based on the genre and alphabetically.
my first loves are the New York City and Winnie The Pooh.
i make friends easier with guys. and there would be times when i feel like a guy trapped in a girl's body.
i think i'm quite open-minded. i believe in monogamy but i don't resent the concept of polygamy or polyandry. i'm heterosexual but i'm still open to other options (and obviously my male friends are cheering for me to play for the other team). i don't deal well with commitments because i don't want to be tied down, and i don't see anything wrong with women who don't want to have kids or don't want to get married just because they're over 30.
work takes a huge part of my life. i find my peace when i'm in pressure and in a competitive work-atmosphere. i don't like long holidays because i'd have nothing to do. and yes, i bring my laptop whenever i'm on holiday.
i talk (and type) very fast. it gets worse when i'm nervous or excited. while on this topic, i turn very red when i'm embarrassed, excited, or furious.
my music taste is quite broad, ranging from jazz to progressive rock, from The Beatles to Metallica. oh, and i play the piano sometimes.
i get turned on by guys who speak English well, open-minded, smoker/ex-smoker, and smart! so no, i won't get interested to a guy who can possibly get mixed up between "technic" and "politic" on "polytechnic" (browse to my old entries to see what i'm referring to).
i sleep with a small towel over the pillow. because i drool sometimes, thanks to 5 years of wearing braces.
there would be moments in your life that you simply can never forget. last night was definitely it, clearly one of the BEST nights in my life.
i went to The Black Cat Jazz with BoBA Smith plus Ikky & Angga. all of us are jazz-lovers, most of us are musicians, and we were longing for some good music.
i arrived around 9, the others joined not so long after. after the first round of Cosmopolitan & beers, the band played. it was Idang Rasjidi, Margie Segers, Mates, and the drummer whose name is still a mystery (what we heard was something between Topan/Bambang/Gaban/Diana Ross). they were playing the jazz standards (Misty, Autumn Leaves, Route 66, etc.), and they distinctly show that they're in a totally different level.
i'll be bilingual for this part:
BENER2 EDAAAAAAANNNN!!!! margie segers nyanyi dah kayak nafas, bener2 effortless. idang rasjidi maennya out of this world, gue ga ngerti apa yang ada di kepala dia pas dia lagi mencet2 tuts piano itu. mates was all cool, dg jari2 (yg kemudian dibahas temen2 gue) yang kayaknya pasti kapalan kalo gaya metik bass betotnya kayak gitu, plus drummer dg stamina yg bener2 sintiiiiingggg...
i was asking dimas at some point, apa ya yg ada di kepala idang kalo lagi perform gini? dia bilang, try to picture blocks of chords. blocks ini ngalir aja di kepala dia, tapi isinya kosong. dan di situ lah dia bebas ngisi dengan mo maen seenak jidat aja.
yang sukses bikin our jaws dropped itu adalah pertama, HOW IN THE WORLD do they know cue untuk setiap part of the song? on every song, setiap pemain dikasih jatah untuk improvise. silakan deh tunjukkan skill2 kalian yg sinting itu. masalahnya, setiap kali improvise itu bener2 seenak jidat semau2nya, ga ketauan berapa lama, ga ketauan mau mainin apa, tapi pemain2 lain itu tau EXACTLY timing yg tepat. transisi dari improvisasi ke semua alat masuk lagi itu bener2 smooth, DAN GAK ADA CUE. gue sama temen2 gue sempet ngebahas, ini patokannya apa, whether via tatapan satu sama laen kah, ato itungan kah? kalo itungan definitely not, karena kalo udah improvisasi gitu ga mungkin bisa latian, itu bener2 musicality yg tinggi on stage. kalo tatapan, itu kita pantengin dan masih ga nemu siapa natep siapa.
kedua, skill mereka yang bener2 ga ada bandingannya. kalo kata dimas "Gods of Music udah turun ke bumi. mereka sekarang lagi nunjukin sebagian keciiiiiil kemampuan mereka,". and he DOES have a point. put it this way, those are 4 musicians dengan skill yg bener2 tinggi, kita audience yg sangat mudah di-impress, jadi kita cukup yakin kemarin itu cuma 10-20% kemampuan mereka. kebayang gak lo kalo audiencenya adalah musisi2 jazz yang levelnya sama kayak mereka? maennya mo kayak apaaaaaa??? there were even moments di mana gue merasa mereka semua sedang in trance. bener2 keliatan that they were in their own little world, dan ngeluarin nada2 yg super keren dari instrumen masing2.
we all stayed up till the last session, up till 1 AM. and OH. MY. GOD. now THAT it what i call jazz. excitementnya, passionnya, musicalitynya, itu bener2 gilaaaa! the last 5-minutes drum solo was one of the highlights of the night. dari awal sampe akhir solo, tempo dia ga berubah sama sekali padahal dia udah gonta-ganti pattern mukulnya. staminanya ga usah ditanya, coba aja elu solo 5 menit. this conversation finally happened:
me: "dim, gue kan ga ngerti teknik drum ya, how hard is it what he's doing now? gue tau itu capek banget, dan gue liat posisi pergelangan tangan dia juga kebayang deh pegelnya."
dimas: "pertama, elu perhatiin gak kalo dari tadi tempo dia sama sekali ga berubah? kedua, ini bener2 dia dikasih jatah ngeluarin seluruh skill yang dia punya. susah, ndar."
me: "*menghadap ke arah drummer* tidurin sayaaaaaa...."
dimas: "kalo elu gak mau, gue yang tidurin dia."
going towards the end of the solo drum, kita semua focused ke Idang, mau tau gemana cara semua alat bakal masuk lagi. ternyata setelah Idang mati gaya karena itu drummer ga kelar2, akhirnya dia lgsg aja serampangan masuk in the middle of the song, ngisi melodi sedikit. not so long after, dia mulai scatting. dan bagian paling sintingnya, tolong diingat ya, itu tuh IMPROVISASI. solo drum lagi improvisasi. obviously ga masuk akal utk dilatianin. dan tau apa yang terjadi? Idang scatting dg melodi yg PERSIS dengan rhythm drummer-nya. HOWWWWWWWWW???????? itu adalah satu part yg gue bener2 ga habis pikir sampe sekarang, gemanaaaaa caranya? setelah Idang masuk, Mates ga lama nyusul, dan sekali lagi tanpa cue, smoothly semua alat gabung lagi jadi 1 dan Margie Segers mulai nyanyi lagi.
i'm not sure if i'm still making sense so far, but i don't care! i need to pour out this excitement from last night.
we ended up giving a standing ovation before heading home.
ladies & gentlemen, now those are the real jazz musicians. or as dimas said, the Gods of Music. i haven't felt this happy about a concert for a while, and surely i haven't heard a real good jazz music in a REAL long while. i cannot even describe the excitement i'm feeling right now, simply can't contain it.
to my dearests, thank you very much for last night. i had a blast!
if you think i'm exaggerating, go there next Wednesday. sit tight until the third session, up to the very last song. YOU tell me if i'm exaggerating.
oh, foods are good, but insanely expensive. go for the cocktails, quite expensive but worth the price.
Jazz music has got to have that thing. You have to be born with it. You can't even buy it. If you could buy it, they'd have it at the next Newport festival. -- Miles Davis
One of the things I like about jazz, kid, is I don't know what's going to happen next. Do you? -- Bix Beiderbecke
Thank you. Thank you, my friends. Thank you for coming here on this beautiful Arizona evening.
My friends, we have -- we have come to the end of a long journey. The American people have spoken, and they have spoken clearly.
A little while ago, I had the honor of calling Senator Barack Obama to congratulate him on being elected the next president of the country that we both love.
In a contest as long and difficult as this campaign has been, his success alone commands my respect for his ability and perseverance. But that he managed to do so by inspiring the hopes of so many millions of Americans who had once wrongly believed that they had little at stake or little influence in the election of an American president is something I deeply admire and commend him for achieving.
This is an historic election, and I recognize the special significance it has for African-Americans and for the special pride that must be theirs tonight.
I've always believed that America offers opportunities to all who have the industry and will to seize it. Senator Obama believes that, too.
But we both recognize that, though we have come a long way from the old injustices that once stained our nation's reputation and denied some Americans the full blessings of American citizenship, the memory of them still had the power to wound.
A century ago, President Theodore Roosevelt's invitation of Booker T. Washington to dine at the White House was taken as an outrage in many quarters.
America today is a world away from the cruel and frightful bigotry of that time. There is no better evidence of this than the election of an African-American to the presidency of the United States.
Let there be no reason now for any American to fail to cherish their citizenship in this, the greatest nation on Earth.
Senator Obama has achieved a great thing for himself and for his country. I applaud him for it, and offer him my sincere sympathy that his beloved grandmother did not live to see this day. Though our faith assures us she is at rest in the presence of her creator and so very proud of the good man she helped raise.
Senator Obama and I have had and argued our differences, and he has prevailed. No doubt many of those differences remain.
These are difficult times for our country. And I pledge to him tonight to do all in my power to help him lead us through the many challenges we face.
I urge all Americans who supported me to join me in not just congratulating him, but offering our next president our good will and earnest effort to find ways to come together to find the necessary compromises to bridge our differences and help restore our prosperity, defend our security in a dangerous world, and leave our children and grandchildren a stronger, better country than we inherited.
Whatever our differences, we are fellow Americans. And please believe me when I say no association has ever meant more to me than that.
It is natural. It's natural, tonight, to feel some disappointment. But tomorrow, we must move beyond it and work together to get our country moving again.
We fought -- we fought as hard as we could. And though we feel short, the failure is mine, not yours.
I am so deeply grateful to all of you for the great honor of your support and for all you have done for me. I wish the outcome had been different, my friends.
The road was a difficult one from the outset, but your support and friendship never wavered. I cannot adequately express how deeply indebted I am to you.
I'm especially grateful to my wife, Cindy, my children, my dear mother and all my family, and to the many old and dear friends who have stood by my side through the many ups and downs of this long campaign.
I have always been a fortunate man, and never more so for the love and encouragement you have given me.
You know, campaigns are often harder on a candidate's family than on the candidate, and that's been true in this campaign.
All I can offer in compensation is my love and gratitude and the promise of more peaceful years ahead.
I am also -- I am also, of course, very thankful to Governor Sarah Palin, one of the best campaigners I've ever seen, and an impressive new voice in our party for reform and the principles that have always been our greatest strength. Her husband Todd and their five beautiful children for their tireless dedication to our cause, and the courage and grace they showed in the rough and tumble of a presidential campaign.
We can all look forward with great interest to her future service to Alaska, the Republican Party and our country.
To all my campaign comrades, from Rick Davis and Steve Schmidt and Mark Salter, to every last volunteer who fought so hard and valiantly, month after month, in what at times seemed to be the most challenged campaign in modern times, thank you so much. A lost election will never mean more to me than the privilege of your faith and friendship.
I don't know -- I don't know what more we could have done to try to win this election. I'll leave that to others to determine. Every candidate makes mistakes, and I'm sure I made my share of them. But I won't spend a moment of the future regretting what might have been.
This campaign was and will remain the great honor of my life, and my heart is filled with nothing but gratitude for the experience and to the American people for giving me a fair hearing before deciding that Senator Obama and my old friend Senator Joe Biden should have the honor of leading us for the next four years.
I would not -- I would not be an American worthy of the name should I regret a fate that has allowed me the extraordinary privilege of serving this country for a half a century.
Today, I was a candidate for the highest office in the country I love so much. And tonight, I remain her servant. That is blessing enough for anyone, and I thank the people of Arizona for it.
Tonight -- tonight, more than any night, I hold in my heart nothing but love for this country and for all its citizens, whether they supported me or Senator Obama -- whether they supported me or Senator Obama.
I wish Godspeed to the man who was my former opponent and will be my president. And I call on all Americans, as I have often in this campaign, to not despair of our present difficulties, but to believe, always, in the promise and greatness of America, because nothing is inevitable here.
Americans never quit. We never surrender.
We never hide from history. We make history.
Thank you, and God bless you, and God bless America. Thank you all very much.
to any of you who missed the epic moment this morning
If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.
It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen, by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different, that their voices could be that difference.
It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled. Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been just a collection of individuals or a collection of red states and blue states.
We are, and always will be, the United States of America.
It's the answer that led those who've been told for so long by so many to be cynical and fearful and doubtful about what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.
It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this date in this election at this defining moment, change has come to America.
A little bit earlier this evening, I received an extraordinarily gracious call from Senator McCain.
Senator McCain fought long and hard in this campaign. And he's fought even longer and harder for the country that he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine. We are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader.
I congratulate him; I congratulate Governor Palin for all that they've achieved. And I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.
I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart, and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton -- and rode with on the train home to Delaware, the vice president-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.
And I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last 16 years -- the rock of our family, the love of my life, the nation's next first lady -- Michelle Obama.
Sasha and Malia -- I love you both more than you can imagine. And you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the new White House.
And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother's watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight. I know that my debt to them is beyond measure.
To my sister Maya, my sister Alma, all my other brothers and sisters, thank you so much for all the support that you've given me. I am grateful to them.
And to my campaign manager, David Plouffe -- the unsung hero of this campaign, who built the best -- the best political campaign, I think, in the history of the United States of America.
To my chief strategist, David Axelrod, who's been a partner with me every step of the way.
To the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics -- you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.
But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to. It belongs to you. It belongs to you.
I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington. It began in the back yards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston. It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give $5 and $10 and $20 to the cause.
It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy, who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep.
It drew strength from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on doors of perfect strangers, and from the millions of Americans who volunteered and organized and proved that more than two centuries later a government of the people, by the people and for the people has not perished from the Earth.
This is your victory.
And I know you didn't do this just to win an election. And I know you didn't do it for me.
You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime -- two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.
Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.
There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage or pay their doctors' bills or save enough for their child's college education.
There's new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair.
The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.
I promise you, we as a people will get there.
There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can't solve every problem.
But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And, above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation, the only way it's been done in America for 221 years -- block by block, brick by brick, callused hand by callused hand.
What began 21 months ago in the depths of winter cannot end on this autumn night.
This victory alone is not the change we seek. It is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were.
It can't happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.
So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism, of responsibility, where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves but each other.
Let us remember that, if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers.
In this country, we rise or fall as one nation, as one people. Let's resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long.
Let's remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House, a party founded on the values of self-reliance and individual liberty and national unity.
Those are values that we all share. And while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress.
As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, we are not enemies but friends. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.
And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too.
And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces, to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of the world, our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand.
To those -- to those who would tear the world down: We will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security: We support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright: Tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity and unyielding hope.
That's the true genius of America: that America can change. Our union can be perfected. What we've already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.
This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight's about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing: Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.
She was born just a generation past slavery, a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky, when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons -- because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.
And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America -- the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes, we can.
At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes, we can.
When there was despair in the Dust Bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs, a new sense of common purpose. Yes, we can.
When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes, we can.
She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "we shall overcome." Yes, we can.
A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination.
And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes, we can.
America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves -- if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?
This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment.
This is our time, to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth, that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope. And where we are met with cynicism and doubts and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people: Yes, we can.
Thank you. God bless you. And may God bless the United States of America.
i spent the last weekend staying at home, with occasional trips to my grandma's place because of her sudden worsening condition. several bestfriends stopped by to have coffee and to have long quality talks with me. it finally came to the point when we started to question, "24. now what?"
we talked about the things we have achieved so far, the things we want to go for in the next couple of years, who we really are and what we have become, and the realization of how short life is. it's like there's this huge urge of wanting for more, more and more. we realized the mistakes that we had made or the things we see as a possible-mistake-bound-to-happen, and in the end we have no regrets. it's the journey and the experience that would make our lives rich, so why should we be afraid of making mistakes?
life is interesting. it has its turns and twists. it's full of choices. i'm 24 with so many choices i have in front of me. none has a certain outcome, although some has a pretty predictable future. i've made up my mind for a couple of choices (for example my decision to go for my postgraduate degree next year), and i haven't made up my mind for others.
all i know is that i don't want to miss out anything. it's scary at times, but still... i want to grab everything that life has to offer, if possible. Carpe diem!
Oh buat yang mo karaokean sama track yg lagi gue pasang sekarang:
Keep Breathing Ingrid Michaelson
The storm is coming but I don't mind People are dying, I close my blinds
All that i know is I'm breathing now
I want to change the world...instead I sleep I want to believe in more than you and me
But all that I know is I'm breathing All i can do is keep breathing All we can do is keep breathing now