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Tuesday, July 31, 2007
this is not my favorite template
but heck, it's free, and i really need a template change. bosen ama yang lama, tapi gak punya waktu bikin yang baru. so on the mean time, i'll settle with this.current playlist: 1. Magic Carpet Ride - Fourplay 2. The Closer I Get to You - Fourplay 3. Back for Good - Take That 4. Something's Wrong - Bali Lounge 5. Well, Did You Evah - Robbie Williams 6. Betcha by Golly, Wow - Leah Labelle 7. Billie Jean - Michael Jackson 8. Sempurna - Andra and the Backbone 9. Neither One of Us - Jeniffer Hudson 10. A Song for You - Elliot Yamin 11. Mr. Bojangles - Robbie Williams 12. Same Girl - R. Kelly feat. Usher 13. Home - Chris Daughtry 14. Please Baby Don't - Sergio Mendez feat. John Legend 15. Quando Quando Quando - Michael Buble feat. Nelly Furtado 16. There's No Me Without You - Toni Braxton 17. Biggest Part of Me - Take 6 18. Got To Be There - Michael Jackson 19. Me & Mrs. Jones - George Huff 20. Movin' On - Elliot Yamin 21. Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol 22. Peaceful Hideway - Kirk Whallum 23. Till You Do Me Right - After 7 & Babyface 24. Since I Fell for You - Al Jarreau 25. Someone to Love - Fourplay Wednesday, July 25, 2007
and finally an update!
the jobsome friends used to ask about my job position. what does "Account Executive" means? truly i have no idea what does that suppose to mean. all i know is that not only do i cover the sales executive's job, i also do a lot of documenting and some accounting for my company. in which then one of my friends told me that /that/ position is "Account Executive". the secretarial job can be quite a pain in the ass, especially getting near to the end of the month. but nothing beats the "handling client" part. for quite a few times, i'd have to deal with impossible clients. there's one who refuses to sign the contract before we start the project, two who can say "i don't like the design" without giving us /any/ clue of "why" or "which part of it does he/she doesn't like" and forces us to make more designs to receive another "i don't like it." or a surprising "this one's good." (it really felt like playing guessing games). then there's another one who simply asks for some better alternatives, and yet when we gave one, she'd pick the previous uglier one. sometimes i just don't get my client's taste. these types are the ones that are SO hard to please. the ones that are too depressing for me because i believe that being a sales executive forces me to be able to keep smiling no matter what, keeping the tone down (although what i usually do is to keep on giving the cheerful tone and laughing to cover my frustration), and stay away from any possible conflicts. i mean, having a project being cut somewhere in the middle is already awful, but to have a quarrel before ending a project is far far worse. not to mention the bad credibility we might get. and really, that's hard! for a person as extrovert as i am, i tend to express what i feel bluntly. but on these particular cases, God how i really wish i can find someone to kill. being in this job successfully making me amazed on insurance and credit card sales executives. i can't imagine how'd they feel to have numerous people keep on turning their offer down (i for one, is an example). some people i know, turned the offers down harshly. and they're used to get those kind of responses. well i'm amazed. how can they not feel depressed having those situations coming over and over again? or do they actually feel depressed at times, i wonder? bistro delifrance currently is my favorite hangout spot at PIM. i drop by like 4 times/week, enough to get a free membership card hahah. i think their coffee is pretty good for the price (compared to the expensive Starbuck's black coffee which tasted like coffee-flavored black water), and the foods are great! i'm particularly keen on their Caesar Salad and their bread pudding (superb!). so what have i been doing? i just finished my 12 sessions personal training. it proved to be worth the money as not only me, but even my friends tell me that now i have a better figure (i'm not saying anything about skinny, because i know that i'd never be skinny :P). those were 12 painful torturing sessions. there would be days when i woke up in the morning and not being able to reach the bathroom because all of my body's aching. then there would be a lot of days when i can't climb /any/ stair. this was a major problem, since my room is located on the second story. so there were times when i just had to stop after every 4-5 steps, and spent 5 minutes to get to my room from downstairs. but now it's worth it. my eating portion is FAR FAR smaller, that sometimes even makes me feeling stunned. well imagine feeling extremely hungry, then feeling TOTALLY full only after the fourth scoop of Caesar Salad. as my friend used to say, "itu mah bikin jigong doang!!" *lol* but really, that's how things are now. it's not like i'm forcing myself to stop eating, but it just so happens that i feel full quickly. kalo gue sih nyebutnya "laper ayam". sama kayak "tidur ayam" yang tidur tapi gak tidur, nah ini laper tapi gak beneran laper. :P Body Combat has been fun!! i finally know which instructors can give good 1-hour classes. it's easy to tell the difference: when you're exhausted just on the third track, then your instructor's not doing a good job. because you're supposed to have enough energy to go through the whole hour. i had fun last week doing jabs and kicks over "YMCA". you see, during the chorus, all of us were doing a lot of kicking here and there, jabs here and there. but then, entering the Reff. we'd start making the YMCA alphabets (you know, the infamous YMCA gestures), to have it being continued by more jabs hooks and kicks. *rotfl* i couldn't stop laughing during the class. it's supposed to be this high impact and dangerous movements, yet we were doing YMCA. it was soooo stupid! some people stopped doing anything doing the Reff., feeling embarrassed, i assume. but not me! i had a lot fun! enough fun to leave a bunch of bruises on my thighs hahahahaha other than that, i've been spending a lot of evenings meeting old friends. i remember talking to my friends, saying that 4 years ago, we were asking things like: "so where are you applying to?" and "have you taken IELTS/TOEFL?". then 2 years after that, we started asking, "who's your girl now?" or "how's college life?". i was betting that within the next 2 years, we'd start asking about marriage. well we sure did. and most answers i'm getting were pretty much similar: "i caught R telling your girl that you're planning to get married next year!" "(swears)! why would he say something like that?? i was thinking of settling down maybe around 27." "now that you have a much older guy, does that means you're getting married anytime soon?" "are you nuts?! i still wanna go travel, enroll for my postgrad program, by the time i'm 28, maybe i'll get married." "you've been dating for 4 years. what's next?" "marriage, you mean? of course not! i'll get married after i get my master's degree. maybe around 26-27." and i thought this "getting married young" is a new trend. :P it's either that topic, or we'd discuss on how frightening "the real life" can be. anin reminded me how predictable life used to be: we go to primary school, then secondary school, then highschool, then we go to college. and then there comes the jungle: life. the more i think about it, the more i realize how frightening this whole thing can be. i just never know what's gonna come next! i used to have this BIG plan on what i wanna do, but i'm so far from it now. and at times i'd stop and worry whether i've made the wrong choices. of course in the end i'd keep my faith that all i'm doing now is grabbing all the chances i see in front of me. i have nothing to lose for now. i'm still young (and yes, bim, gue blon jadi nenek2 dan gue blon keriputan/tua/peyot/ato apa lah!), i just started my journey, and i truly believe that one day i'd look back and i'd be proud to tell myself that i've regretted nothing. life /is/ fun. it's unpredictable, but that's what makes life so interesting. you just never know what kind of ride might come next. and yet you'll jump on it anyway and either you have fun with it, or you don't. well life's too short, so i choose to have fun with it. *grin* book recommendations i'm running out of books to read. hence for the past few weeks, i've been reading some books i've read before. it's not that fun though, because i tend to read faster if i've read the book before. within a week i finished Sidney Sheldon's Tell Me Your Dreams, Star Shines Down, Best Laid Plans, and Bloodline. so now i'm asking if there's any of you who has a recommendation of a good book to read? as for now, "Bertanya atau Mati!" stays in my toilet book-rack. i read it over and over, and still find it very witty and amusing no matter how many times i've read it. one of my favorite paragraphs: "....Ambil analogi lempar lembing. Dalam Olimpiade setiap hari, kita sendiri tidak mengerti kenapa kita harus melontarkan lembing dari genggaman jika kita harus mengukur jauhnya, memungutnya, dan melemparnya lagi. Yang kita tahu hanyalah bahwa sejumlah angka akan muncul di layar besar lapangan, menunjukkan sejauh mana kita melempar dibandingkan dengan orang lain. Dan itu menjadi alasan utama bagi kita untuk menepuk dada. Atau menunduk malu. Mengapa kita mau saja? Kitalah yang seharusnya memilih sendiri apakah kita harus bangga atau malu dengan keadaan kita. Bukan dari hasil membandingkan dengan orang lain. Dan bukan karena paksaan standar sosial. Bukan karena kita saling membandingkan apa yang kita anggap prestasi. Saya suka tidur. Tapi apa kita pernah membandingkan berapa lama kita tidur? Oh, tidak. Sebaliknya di dunia kerja, kita malah membandingkan berapa lama kita tidak tidur. Dunia kita ini lucu. Ada yang ingin tahu perbandingan prestasinya dengan manusia sejagat raya? Silakan bandingkan selagi saya tidur." ---Bertanya Atau Mati! page 69-70, chapter "Olimpiade Setiap Hari', by isman h. sunaryaman. ps: man, kalo aku gak boleh quote segitu banyak karena melanggar copyright, bilang yah.. ntar aku apus. :) so there ya go! quite some writing, eh? i do wish that one day people would come up with a gadget that can record things that are going on in your mind. because sometimes i'd have ideas about what i'm going to write on my blog, just on the wrong times: when i'm about to take a shower, when i'm stuck on a traffic jam, when i'm smoking in the toilet, or any other times when i just don't have my laptop with me (and i sure as hell am not going back to normal diaries when i'm suppose to write using a pen, it's too tiring). pretty sure i'd update this blog more often heheh *biasaaaa... cari alesaaaannn....* to my darlings abroad, pulaaaaaaang! because my God, we have so many things to catch up! and because i miss you all very-very much! *cup cup* Friday, July 20, 2007
raden is poisonous
ngeracunin gue jadi tergila2 sama ini lagu:Sempurna Andra & The Backbone Kau begitu sempurna Dimataku kau begitu indah kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu Disetiap langkahku Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu * Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku Takkan mampu menghadapi semua Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa Reff: Kau adalah darahku Kau adalah jantungku Kau adalah hidupku Lengkapi diriku Oh sayangku, kau begitu Sempurna.. Sempurna.. Kau genggam tanganku Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku Back to * although this doesn't make sense at all. nobody's perfect. *grin* Monday, July 09, 2007
depression mode-on
PMS time of the month. hate it. hate it. hate it.DAHLIA X Japan DO NOTHING BUT CRY DAY AND NIGHT kako to mirai no hazama de kawaranai omoi kirei na uso ni kaete mo...ALL ALONE hateshinai yosora ni nagareru namida wo dakishimete... mo ichido OH MY DAHLIA kokoro wo nurasu kanashimi wa kazoe kirenai hoshi ni narukedo YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU'RE GOING TO mayoi no naka de hirogeta kodoku no tsubasa namida no umi wo koetara YOU'LL SEE BLUE SKY katachi no nai yume demo ii ashita no kaze ni kazashite habataku...ima TIME AFTER TIME YOU TRY TO FIND YOURSELF nagareru toki no naka de taenai kizu dakishime setsunasa no kaze ni mau DREAM ON YOUR LEFT DEAD ON YOUR RIGHT aoi yoru wo dakishimete ashita wo toi kakeru mujun darake no kokoro ni... DEAD OR LIVE eien ni ichibyo ni nagareru namida wo kazaranai de...mo nido to OH MY DAHLIA dare mo ga motsu kokoro no kizuato ni nagareru ame wa... TIME AFTER TIME yoru no sora ni umareta imi toi kakeru taenai namida no kawa gin'iro ni kagayaku made tsumetai kaze ni fukarete tobidatenai tori tachi ga sorezore no yume dakishime yoake no sora wo... Destiny Alive Heaven Love Innocence Always Destroy Aftermath Hell Life Infinite TIME AFTER TIME YOU CRY IN REALITY nagareru toki wo tomete nagashita namida no ato genso no hana ga saku translation: Do nothing but cry Day and night In a narrow space between past and future Your memories will stay unchanged Even if you turn them into beautiful lies... you're all alone Your tears flow Into an unlimited nocturnal sky... Once more Oh my Dahlia Your heart filled with sorrow Turns into an unfinished number of stars You don't know where You're going to In distress you have deploy your wings of loneliness Beyond an ocean of tears You'll see blue sky Even in a shapeless dream Refugee on the tomorrow's winds Flap your wings... now Time after time You try to find yourself In the time which passes You carry unchanging injuries Which flutter in winds of oppression Dream on your left Dead on your right Embrace the blue night Question your tomorrows In your heart filles with contradiction... dead or alive In a second long like eternity Your tears won't flow Two times Oh my Dahlia For whoever has scars in their heart The rain streams Time after time In the nocturnal sky You question why are you born Until your endless river of tears Shines with a brilliant gold color The icy wind blows The birds what can't fly Carry each one of your dreams Into the daybreak's sky Destiny Alive Heaven Love Innocence Always Destroy Aftermath Hell Life Infinite Time after time You cry in reality The passing time stops Miracle of sheded tears The flowers of your illusions will open out can anyone tell me why God created PMS? what benefit does it has?? |
