Chorus: Just like the season changes life's unwritten pages You cannot gage the years Let's play it by ear
Don't let the past decide what dreams may lie inside us Seek what the future hides and keep your heart open wide and rise
Oh, where does the time go Speeding, yet slow Can't help but see it's taken its toll
Worked so hard that love's been put on hold and guard not to sell my soul But somewhere things went wrong In this world, we're not meant to be alone
*repeat chorus
How selfish we both are When feelings are down can't even gaze up at the stars
Like a child, remembering how to sing Running wild, impulsive like the wind and living on the fringe For a while, let's just see what life brings
*repeat chorus
Look forward to tomorrow and happiness will follow With hope, I just wanna live
Compassion lets us swallow emotions full of sorrow In life, I just wanna give
Wade past the shallow waters and trust yourself to go deeper Your soul's eyes will let you see
Let's climb those hills together and reach to get even higher With you, I want to be free
So don't be afraid Throw cautions away and be
Like a child, remembering how to sing Running wild, impulsive like the wind and living on the fringe For a while, let's just see what life brings
*repeat chorus
i luv you.
and now we choose to take our chances and gamble with the future. with all its uncertainities.
i still keep my faith.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
i'll take my words back.
life isn't always fabulous. . . . . especialy when you're having a freakin' PMS!!!!! aaarrrghhhh!!! pengen banget rasanya bunuh orang sekarang, kalo gak pake garpu tanah pengen garuk2 muka orang!!!
ah iya, tadi sempet menjadi diskusi di antara gue dan feha. dan berhubung feha tidak tahu jawabannya, gue tanya di sini deh. kali2 ada yg mo jawab:
cowo Indo yg non-Muslim tu pada disunat gak?
oh.
and i'm still insisting on coloring my hair violet. just haven't got enough cash yet. wait and see. nyeheh.
yes i keep your messages, fa.
"Life doesn't wait for you in bus stops dear-it goes and leave you crying there-but we can control ourselves to make sure we're on time for the next bus to come along :)"
"Your fabulousness will translate-remember darling, we are couture-not some Mangga Dua knockoffs! Haute Couture!"
darling, those messages are SO you. gay and fabulous. i luv you very much! thank you for always being there for me. dan itu blog kamu coba di-update yahhh... ampe isinya udah spam semua gitu. surprise me when you've arrived here. :)
so yes, i haven't been around my blog for quite a while. life's been hectic like always, not much to tell. although lately i managed to have more meet-ups and contacts with my ol' besties. namely achiet, who has been with me in a string of coffee meet-ups (and ciggies, for me) lately to tell her story about this freak who drowned her into a lot of mess. keep me updated, girl. i wanna know what he says this time. if he's going to say "you took my signals wrong. i never 'like'' you in that way", i'll shoot him on the head myself. then lany, who's been pretty much in touch since she had some dilemmas with some job-offerings she got. anggiya, who never failed to kiss-and-tell about "everything" that have been going with her life (and yes, i mean "everything", hahahaha). and of course my twin, rully, who's about to be away for a while and yet managed to go shopping with me every so often *grin*
life's been good, i think. sure there are problems, but what's life without problems, i suppose.
i do get numerous sms-es from some bastard i don't know. giving me all these mushy poems and "i love you"s, and never his name. well FYI, i do NOT and i NEVER like mushy poems. i do know that some girls love it when their boyfriends write them a song, i'm not that type. i'm not even big on flowers and chocolates. i hate those "routine sms"-es saying "udah makan belum? udah mandi blum? udah minum obat belum? jangan nggak ya, nanti kamu sakiiitt.." HECK. if i'm hungry, i'll eat. if i feel sick, i'd get myself some aspirin and water. i take a shower twice a day, sometimes three times. i deal with my own schedule, and i don't need someone to tell me to do those routine. i even broke up with a guy within 4 days after he started to send me those kinds of messages (remember mr. narcistic?). so don't blame me if i don't get touchy feely reading your sms-es, SIR! >_< i do hope he reads this. *stares*
got a prospectus from Cornell University, but hate the environment. seen it from the pictures, full of trees and parks. whlist i'm looking for some buildings and traffic jams hahah
a certain friend's (*wink wink*) wedding plan is freaking me out. i enjoy helping that couple to plan things. but everytime i do that, i can't help but feeling "oh my God, is the clock also ticking for me?". i get freak out on marriage thoughts as i don't believe in the institution. i'm afraid of two things: a guy's tendency to cheat as if it's a built-in, and the possibility of getting bored after years of marriage. watching alot of Ally McBeal and Sex & The City contributed a lot in these thoughts as well. jadi inget:
Samantha: Most couples stop having sex after they're married. Miranda: But you have sex with a lot of married guys? Samantha: That's how I know.
*lol*
work's been great. after the usual pattern of odd months with few projects, we're entering the even month, with a handful of projects. alhamdulillah. i love it when projects are coming. it means more money (and a little more shopping *grin*) and more hectic schedule. oh and speaking of which, this morning i woke up at 6, getting ready for a meeting at Kuningan at 8. all the way to Kuningan, I kept on fretting on the notion of waking early to work. the meeting was cancelled in the end to my own stupidity as I misread the email about the change of schedule. but however, that was when i realize that this kind of schedule is the kind i'd be facing if i had work in a "normal" office (not saying that we're abnormal, we're just into ROWE == Result Oriented Work Environment). i usually wake up 9 AM, have meetings till 5 PM, coffees/American Idol/sitcom until 10 PM, then paperworks until 2 or 3 AM. my biological clock is shifting. but yes, i love my life at the moment.
life's fabulous. or maybe i'm just trying to convince myself.
ndari, nday, ojochan, nenek, burung, bursky, birdy, wulan
obsessed with new york city, vin diesel, yoshiki hayashi, having an apartment, and keeping things clean & tidy
describes herself as anal-retentive, a workaholic, a credit-card abuser, a faghag, suffering from light OCD
luv luv luv coffee, cigarettes, bodyCombat, cocktails, chit-chatting, making friends, organizing, working, the idea of decorating her own apartment, shopping
freaks out over talks about marriage and having kids
hates fruits, mushy-spoiled-and-stupid guys, cooking, people who are not being ontime/ nosy/ judgmental/ who burp in public