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Sunday, September 25, 2005
beuh.. bangun pagi, mata masih bengkak gini.masih kayak orang bingung, asli deh.. bener2 kayak baru diputusin pacar rasanya sekarang. jadi sering nge-flashback, ngeliatin foto2 dulu sontak nangis, dengerin lagu L'Aruku malah efeknya makin ancur. gue kirain gue doang, tapi tadi pagi Arif sms gue ternyata dia ga jauh beda. i suppose ini cuma shock sesaat sih. it's like we knew one day this would come to an end, tapi ga nyangka bakal secepet ini. padahal baru 2 hari yg lalu gue ngehibur Arif, bilang kalo lately kita jarang latian mungkin karena belum nemu mood-nya aja. eeeeeeeeeeehh.. ternyata. kemaren pas masih di rumah Raden masih nahan2 nangis, ehhh.. tu bocah tau2 masuk kamar, "bundar nangis?" waaaaaaaaaa... malah jadi ga bisa nahan lagi, langsung ngebanjir. terus kita sok2 nge-flashback pas 3 taun lalu gue baru gabung, gue masih jadi replacement-nya Yayas, terus inget2 senengnya pas akhirnya gue jadi pemaen tetep. malem juga gitu, selama kongkow2 masih gpp. ehhh begitu ketemu intan ama farah, terus pada melukin, banjir lagi. beneran kan?? kayak orang abis diputusin?? *sigh* tauk lah, bete ajah. jarang gue nge-band yg bisa sampe dapet banget chemistry-nya, yang bisa ampe kuat banget bond antar personnel-nya, apalagi konsep jetto dari awal kan emang "one big happy family". tolol2an bareng, seneng2an jg bareng, dulu jaman gue lagi depresi baru putus juga larinya ke anak2, gue ada masalah di kampus jg anak2 dah nyuru prabha siap2 utk ke fasilkom utk gebukin orang, blon kalo lagi membego di kamar raden dengan menjustifikasi apapun kelakuan miring dia dengan "kita kan keluargaaaaa...." XD in the end yaa, bocah2 ini ternyata ngambil porsi rada gede di hidup gue. obat stress paling mujarab lah, ga pernah gue ga seneng kalo lagi ama anak2. but oh well.. utk semuanya, gue wish you all the best. at least family-bond kita jangan ampe putus lah, kalo mo jalan ato apa ya mari saling mengajak. terutama utk raden, ganbatte!! :) Niji L'Arc~en~Ciel Toki wa kanadete omoi wa afureru Togiresou na hodo toumei na koe ni Aruki-dashita sono hitomi e Hateshinai mirai ga tsuzuite 'ru Hontou wa totemo kokoro wa moroku Dare mo ga hibiwarete iru Furidashita ame ni nurete Kimi wa mata tachidomatte shimau kedo Shinjite kureru kara Dare yori takaku sora e to chikazuku Kagayaki wo atsume hikari wo motomeru Moetsukite mo kamawanai sa Subete wa shinjitsu to tomo ni aru "Shounen wa hito no kage de yuganda nikushimi wo mita" Sonna sekai nante mou nani mo mitaku nai yo Nani mo! Nani mo! Nani mo! Sore demo omoi anata no koto wo Kisetsu ga nagare ite mo... Me wo tojite itsu mo mite 'ta fuukei no you ni Nando me ga ame mo agatta Setsunai hito yo Kanawanu negai yo Naze kono mune kara ai wa umarete iku? Sakimidareta hana wa yurete Shizunda daichi ni furisosogu Ai wo toki wa kanadete omoi wa afureru Togiresou na hodo toumei na koe ni Aruki-dashita sono hitomi e Owaranai mirai wo sasageyou (stairway to heaven labyrinth to heart) Translation: My feelings are filled with the performance of time with a clear voice The endless future continue to walk to your eyes My heart is honestly fragile Everybody around me is breaking Suddenly in the sudden rain, although you stop again You still believe in me Higher than everyone else Close to the sky I am close to something bright and shinny I wished for light If I was burning, I will be okay Everything is accompanying the truth "The boy saw the hatred to which he is hiding a person shadow" I don't want to see this kind of world anymore No more! No more! No more! But I will still think of you Even if the season is coming to an end It has rained many times but now it has stopped It looks like the scene which i always watched with my eyes closed The person pain The dreams which never come true Why does love have to be born in my chest The flowers that we blossoming are sinking back into the ground The time is fill with love With a clear voice continue to give the endless night to your eyes Saturday, September 24, 2005
np: L'Arc~en~Ciel - A Silent Lettersompret. sakitnya kayak diputusin pacar... :( Wednesday, September 14, 2005
and what do you know... a year has passed. interesting, i have to say. partly amazing, partly devastating, partly happy, partly sad, so in the end... interesting. :Psayang kamu. Tuesday, September 13, 2005
while waiting for a couple of team-mates to come over to discuss some serious matters, i decided to log into my accont at blogger.com & write something.life's been back to normal. my decision to take only 14 units for this semester turned to be a very wise decision. i didn't expect that i'd be involved in so many projects & businesses for the next one year (or maybe more). my last trip to singapore for my internship went to be a trip that opened my eyes & changed so many plans i used to have in mind. just like my cousin (which makes me think that maybe this is actually genetic), i live my life according to the plans i've made. just name it, i've made my plans for tomorrow, next week, next year, or even the next 5 years. at the past times, i used to fret everytime something came up and i'm forced to change my plans. but nowadays i don't fret as much cause turned out that things that you don't expect might turn to be something very exciting & appealing in the end. if nothing goes wrong (amen!), i'd be graduating next year. at this point, i'm torn into two. i used to plan that i'd just go to the traditional way. you know, graduating, work somewhere with a decent salary 9-to-5, go for a postgraduate degree, settling down, then get married. but at this point, twisting some things around might just make life more interesting. sure it's far more risky, but i don't know... at this point i'd rather take the other path than going with the traditional path and regretting my chances or my dreams by then. several meetings have to be attended on the next couple of weeks. these meetings to me are needed as extra helps for myself to decide what i want to do when i graduate. for now, making my own business (non IT-related, people, mind you) might just be more appealing. but on the other hand, running a friend's dad's company is also very tempting, as it'll be something i've wanted for the past 5 years: working as an auditor. oh well, in the end I can always make plans yet God'll decide what's best for me. so for now, i'll just enjoy what i have and do what i wanna do. ah iya, mulai minggu ini gue jadi asdos lagi hehehehe 3 taun berturut2, lucu juga.. sama Jetto tadi daftar band competition Motorola yg di Sastra, wish us luck! a lyric to close the entry (been listening to this song on and on and on): The Long and Winding Road The Beatles The long and winding road That leads to your door Will never disappear I've seen that road before It always leads me here leads me to your door. The wild and windy night That the rain washed away Has left a pool of tears Crying for the day. Why leave me standing here? Let me know the way. Many times I've been alone And many times I've cried, Anyway you'll never know The many ways I've tried. But still they lead me back To the long, winding road You left me standing here A long, long time ago Don't leave me waiting here Lead me to your door. But still they lead me back To the long winding road You left me standing here A long, long time ago (ohhh) Don't keep me waiting here Lead me to your door. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah... "Count on me through thick and thin A friendship that will never end When you are weak, I will be strong Helping you to carry on Call on me, I will be there Don't be afraid Please believe me when I say Count on me" ---------------------------------------Whitney Houston & Cece Winans Had a great time yesterday. Went to have a long chat with my girl friends at Gelare, accompanied with all girls' enemies: waffles, ice creams, and milk shakes. I chose smoothies, btw. Yoghurt & skim milk, heheh. The last time we had such time was hmmm... 3 months ago? So we've been catching up with yummy gossips about our friends, stories about boyfriends/HTS/gebetan/whatever, and even plans to make some business (one of my favorite part of the session, obviously heheh). On these times, ndari would switch to be a girl. Who loves gossips, chats, and wear skirts *lol* I was there with Anggia, Andhita, Anin, & Lany. Anin and I had a competition with our weight as usual, but this time I won for 4 kgs!!! Hahahahahaha Utk yang tidak tahu, Anin is a good friend of mine yang ga tau kenapa selama SMA selalu dibilang tampangnya mirip gue. In the end kita jadi duet toge-pasar, although terakhir ketemu ama anak2, gue dikomentarin dah ga "ge" amat sejak gue kurusan sementara Anin masih tetep "sar" biarpun dia udah kurusan hahahahahaha Sori lokal, kalo ga ngerti boleh tanya ke gue langsung. Pulang dari sana, beberapa jam kemudian, ONIICHAN DATAAAANG!!!! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... ya Alloh terakhir ketemu dah berapa bulan yang lalu yah... Syeneeeeng banget, meskipun dia mulai dengan segala complain2 normal dia: 1) Gue kayak mbak2 kalo pake rok. 2) Gue terlalu tirus dan jelek jadi dia minta gue naekin bberapa kg lagi. hehe Tapi serius deh, seneng banget. This is the person who have real GREAT influence on me, dari jaman gue masih SMP sampe sekarang. I can say that I'm becoming the person I am now, mostly kepengaruh sama dia, di luar influence dari temen2, pacar, dan keluarga. He gave me his latest TV7 name card and the master copy of Peter Pan's video clip "Bintang di Langit (eh??? gue lupa jg judulnya)". His gang, Code4, were acting in the video clip. Raya went home, I rushed to watch the video clip. And you know what, thumbs up to Rizal Mantovani, keren banget! Gue kira bakal kampungan karena ceritanya Code4 kan jadi LAPD segala, tapi ternyata nggak loh. Code4 juga keren banget, ga ada kaku2nya sama sekali, dan Raya sempet kesorot berkali-kaliiiiiiii.... wihihihihi sampe tereak2 sendiri tiap dia nongol XD Justru yg aktingnya jelek tuh personnel Peter Pan-nya sendiri. Payah. Yang paling gawat tu yg meranin negotiator-nya, gile.. kalo negotiator kayak gitu sih, gue ga heran kalo penjahatnya bakal kalap terus nembakin sandera. Kelar nonton, cek email bentar, dan ada email dari Fariz!!!! Catching up with stories of his current life, dan somehow pas baca tuh baru kerasa kalo gue kangeeeeeeeen banget ama anak2. Apalagi kalo ditambah baca testimonial Bebe ama Dila di FS *sigh* Kapan kalian pulaaaaaaaaaaaanggg? Aku rinduuu..... Anyway, ini emang entry yg ga penting sama sekali. Cuma kerasa lucu aja kemaren kok bisa tiba2 all my old friends tiba2 nongol semua. :) Tuesday, September 06, 2005
pengen nulis dikit sebelon tidur, dah ngantuk sih sebenernya.the trip to Bandung was FUNNN!!!!!!!! Sumpah seneng banget. I mean, it's my /actual/ vacation after spending the last 2 months working plus the 6 months before drowned in the piles of assignments and projects. So I arrived at Raden's at 4 in the morning, just the way it was planned. And whaddaya know.. bapak satu itu kebablasan tidur jd blon jemput Marin. Taka kebablasan tidur jd blon berangkat bareng Boy. Weleh. Alhasil setelah nyempetin beli rokok dan sarapan di Circle K, kami pun berangkat jam 6 pagi. Dengan hebatnya, jam 7 lewat dah sampe di Pasteur. Gue kira sejam dah cepet, ehhhhh... si Raden ternyata malah dah nunggu di situ sekitar 10-15 menit. Adegan berikutnya adalah menonton Raden berusaha pipis ke dalam botol di belakang mobil *rotfl* Not so long after kami2 ke Cihampelas, ngecek hotel yang ternyata blon available kamarnya, terus sarapan di seberang hotel. Bubur ayam. Karena laper, pada pesen lah bubur ayam. Kesalahan terbesar gue dan Arif adalah duduk tepat di depan ember cucian mangkoknya. Kita ngeliatin si ibu ngambil mangkok kotor, nyemplungin ke ember pertama yang warna airnya udah kayak comberan, kucek2, terus cemplungin lagi ke ember kedua yang warna airnya abu2 butek. Done! Mangkok siap dipakai kembali. Gue ama Arif langsung dengan sigapnya melihat ke arah lain. Fokus kemudian jatoh ke Dika yang berlari2 di pinggir Cihampelas sambil goyang2 joget2 pake tudung kepala putih. Asli dah.. tu anak kadang2 bikin malu ajah hahahahaha Eniwei not so long after kita jalan2 ke CiWalk ngeliatin tempat manggung. Becanda ampe bego, terus check sound. Setelah puasa manggung selama 2 bulan, gue ended up gemetaran pas check sound. Gemeteran grogi ga keruan gitu, alhasil pas solo keyboard jari keserimpet2 ngaco gitu.. hiks... Kelar check sound (in which terpesona abis dengan Banzai, gila tu band...), becanda bego lagi, terus check in. Tepar lah saya di kamar, dan tau2 pas bangun dah menemukan Didit dan Arif di 2 ranjang laen, serta Prabha di kasur bawah. Jam 2-an ngajak Didit makan siang, begitu kelar, pules tidur lagi hehehehe Jam 5-an dah mulai ngoyok2in anak2 supaya pada mandi, jam 6 kita jalan ke CiWalk. Dannn ternyata acara molor sejam, jadilah menanti-nanti sambil nonton band2 laen. Ada band aneh bawain Malice Mizer, niat abissss. DAh lah dandanannya Visual, pake pula mereka dance2nya Malice Mizer, hahahaha seru seru.. Orang2 yg cosplay jg asli niat abissssss! Ada geng FF7, geng FF8, etc. Sejam kemudian, Jetto melakukan rutinitas bedoa (in which Dika ga bisa berenti goyang2 dan acclaim kalo dia beragama Ainu), terus mulai ngangkutin alat. On the last minute, song list diubah. Drop Djay batal, digantiin sama Lose Control. Masuk panggung, nyetel alat, spoiler lagu dikit2 buat ngetes keyboard, dan dimulaaaaaai. Pertama maen Anemone, seneeeeeng!!! Gue dah ga gemeteran lagi, jadi maen lancar banget ga pake acara2 slip. Pas solo keyboard juga sinkron total sama Dika, wuahahahahahahahaha akhirnya mimpi saya tercapaaaaaiiii!!! Abis itu maen Lose Control. Kelar Lose Control, duduk menemani Dika sambil nonton Jetto maenin Hello (dengan sempet ketawa karena Malik sok2 muter2 dan ended up kelibet ama kabel hahahahahaha). Kelar Hello, giliran lagu sendiriiii... dan anak2 bawain Kung Kung Kung. Baru abis itu gue ama Dika balik ke keyboard, maenin Link. Alhamdulillah semua lancaaaaarr... Sempet diminta encore, tapi waktu dah abis jadi kami beberes dan ciao. Abis Jetto, nyempetin nonton Soundwave sebentar, sebelum kemudian diajakin anak2 ngobrol di di Starbucks. Yasmine masih ga ada matinya dah!!!! Bener2 gila tu suara, gue tetep betahan jadi fans-nya Soundwave deh! Abis itu Banzai masuk. Maenin Weekend deh kalo ga salah, terus OST-nya One Piece, terus Tears!!!!! Suara gue ampe serek nyanyi2 bareng Arif di depan panggung, keren abissssssssssssssss.... Mereka masih jagoannya J-Indo band Jakarta deh emang, dan dah sepantasnya karena skill-nya bener2 sinting. Gue ngeliatin keyboardist-nya dah mo drool, jago banget.. T_T Baru 3 lagu, terus panitia mo nge-cut. Gue ama anak2 betereak2 lah ngomel2 ga keruan, ehhhh tau2 mereka nyambung lagi nyanyi Jiyuu e no Shoutai. Kelar lagu itu, mereka masih maksa maen Endless Rain. Ampe terharu pas nonton, ngeliatin mereka maksa tetep maen karena emang semua dateng buat nonton mereka, padahal operatornya dah matiin sound buat tembak ke luar. Jadi cuma ngandelin monitor doang, Patria malah mic-nya dah mati. Huaaaaaaaaaaaa.... kasian banget... paling sepet tuh kalo ngalamin kayak gitu. Ehhh tau2 ada 1 panitia pingsan gara2 emosional banget nonton Banzai yang dah manggung dengan sound minim gitu, berenti manggung deh mereka, tapi tetep dapet cheers yang gede banget dari penonton. Malem nyempetin kelayapan Dago Atas dan Dago Bawah just for the sake of food. Gue sendiri maag-nya kambuh dan masuk angin, jadi bete abis. Malem pas pulang langsung tewas, bangun2 dah jam 8. In the end, the whole trip was fun. Yaaa bisa diduga sih, kalo yang namanya road trip gini, terus ada Prabha - Arif - Dika, udah deh.. kebayang bisa ketawa ga berenti sepanjang hari. It went to be really great, I had a lot of fun! Today balik ke normal life. Seharian ga jauh2 dari PC, PDA, dan HP, ribet bikin appointment dan laporan2, bah. But oh well, it's the normal life, I'm stepping back into the reality. more news: Didit sekarang jg merokok!!! wahahahahahaha satu lagi korban dari Jetto, tinggal Arif sendirian yang nggak berarti. wihihihi terus rencana ngerokok sehari 2 batang gue gagal total. Spend time 2 hari full bersama Jetto dg suksesnya bikin gue balik ke 1 pak sehari, jadi total 2 hari kemaren itu 2 bungkus! Gawaaaaaatttt... hari ini dah mendingan, turun ke 6 batang doang. Doakan besok bisa turun lagi, aminnn... hehehe dah ah, ngantuk banget. Thursday, September 01, 2005
just a quick updatefinally... HOME. nyentuh internet selama seminggu ini cuma sekitar 3x, kenapa? karena saya ENEG SAMA KOMPUTER!!! asli dah.. setelah spend 2 bulan mantengin PC 10 jam tiap harinya, pulang2 gue bener2 yg namanya ogah liat PC. lab kampus jg blon gue samperin sama sekali. anyway, amazingly enough bahwa sejak pulang berat gue malah turun lagi. sekarang dah 51 kg wakakakakakkaka tampaknya lemak saya pindah ke pacar yg semakin menggembrot hihihi been a busy week though. baru kerasa kalo 2 bulan tu lama, karena gue jd musti catch up with LOADS of things. ampe pening kalo ketemu si ini, "bu bu, ini gemana ini acaranya?? kapan rapat?" ketemu si itu, "kalo ketemuan di rumah lu aja gemana hari jumat?" ketemu si ono, "elu dah telpon si ibu?" wah mampus lah awak.. sabar ya cinta2ku, ini satu persatu nih gue ngejernya. pacar dan gue memecahkan rekor utk kita sendiri urusan ketemuan. mengingat dulu first date aja baru bisa kesampean setelah 2 bulan pacaran karena kita sama2 sibuk, bisa ketemu tiap hari selama 6 hari ke belakang bikin gue hepi banget! wekekeke tapi jadi tau bahwa sisi perfeksionis gue ga bekurang biar sedikit juga. jadi ceritanya gue pegi2 ama dia sejak sabtu lalu pas dia wisuda, terusss... sampe kemaren pas latian ama jetto. nah 2 hari yg lalu dia ikutan masuk ke studio pas jetto lagi latian. dan apa yang terjadi? saya grogi ga keruan. aneh banget sih perasaannya. kayak apa ya, kalo dia liat gue manggung sih gue ga pernah problem. soalnya dia ngeliat dah produk akhir, jadi dah gue anggep perfect. tapi kalo latian itu kayak masih blon jadi, masih jauh dari perfect, dan gue grogi abissss dia ngeliatin. alhasil besoknya saya usir pas mo latian hehehe maap. :P semester ini ngambil kuliah dikiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit banget. cuma 14 sks, itu pun yg kuliah beneran cuma 8 sks. seminar akhirnya gue putusin utk ngambil semester depan aja, sisa 8 sks-nya MBOH. sungguh mati ga tau mo ngambil apa. mata kuliah yg pengen gue ambil utk semester terakhir dg sialnya adalah mata kuliah yg sepanjang 4 taun gue kuliah blon pernah keliatan nongol di antara pilihan utk IRS. :( gue dah positif bakal ke bandung, berangkat lusa pagi, pulang Minggu. Minggu jam brp jg ga tau, tergantung andin-acun-kuy dan jetto pada mo ngapain dulu sblon pulang. alhasil selama seminggu ini capek banget latian tiap hari. dan kayak ga tau jetto aja? milih jam latian suka ga manusiawi, jam 9 malem ke atas. pulang jam 12-an mulu, duh boyokku.. yg ke bandung pada nonton duooonggg!!! this is probably the last time kita bakal bawain lagu L'Aruku. setelah itu pensiun karena kita mo fokus di lagu2 sendiri. Sabtu manggung jam 7 di CiWalk selama setengah jam. bocoran nih: single terbaru L'Aruku, salah satu hit-nya Hyde, 2 lagu sendiri (which btw kereeeeeeeeeeeen... hahahaha narcist), plus satu lagu dari album Clicked Single Best. lagu yg terakhir ini sepanjang ingatan gue blon pernah dibawain ama j-indo band laen, obviously bikin gue ama dhika ampir depresi pas latian. jari dah keserimpet2 mulu, tapi insya Allah lancaaar.. dan kalo bisa bener bawain, akhirnya satu mimpi saya tercapai. ^_________^ yo wis, this is just a quick update. gotta go now karena ga tahan lagi dg serangan nyamuk bertubi2 di ruangan ini. talk later! |
