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Thursday, August 25, 2005
Di antara kepanikan gue menjelang saat2 terakhir yang tiba2 dihujani request sana-sini (deploy sistem, revisi user manual, revisi dokumentasi utk handover, sms Sate masalah kuliah di FE, sms orang2 rumah ttg jam brp gue arrive, sms Dimas ttg rencana latian Sabtu & ke Bdg, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...), post lirik bentar ah.btw lagunya KEREN! tipe2 yg string-nya gue sukaaaa banget! asik asik pulang dari sini cari single-nya dulu ah di HMV. ^^ LINK L'Arc-en-Ciel - OST Full Metal Alchemist oboteiru kai osonai koro kara tsumesakitachi de todokanai tobira ga atta yo ne jikan wo wasurete samayoi tsukushita meiro no machi wa itsumo soko ni ikiataru muishiki ni egao wo sagasu no wa tomerarenai nani hitotsu kawarazu ni ima mo boku wa kakete yuku reff: tatoe haruka tooku hanareba narare ni natte mo tsunagari au omoi itazura na unmei ga furikakarou tomo kowareyashinai nozomareru asu ga sono sakini aru to atama no oku de daremo ga kizuiteiru hazu sa harewataru hibi ni arasoi no dougu ga kiesaru toki wo itsuka kimi ni misetai na kizutsuke au no wo yamanai ochite yuku sekai dakedo kimi ni deaeru koto dake de mou nani mo kowaku wa nai tatoe kono karada ga ikura moetsukite mo ii sa kimi ni sasagu nara oozora he to boku wa masshiro ni maiagari mamotte ageru repeat reff. tatoe kono karada ga ikura moetsukite mo ii sa kimi ni sasagu nara itsuka umure kawaru sekai ga sono me ni todoku ii na yesterday: 2. today: 1.25. kelar 1, kepala langsung kliengan. bagus bagus... akhirnya badan mulai nolak :) dan 1 yg gue baru sadar (telat abis..): baunya ko lebih ga enak punya sini sini daripada punya Indo. the unpredictable future that's just one great thing about the future: you could never predict. you can only make decisions based on your own estimations, looking at the risks & chances, and of course some gut feeling. i send my best regards to a dear friend of ours (meta & I), mr. larry, for all of his advices. our lives might just change after this. Ta, i wud still say that you should take the chance. you can leave the rests to me, as long as we have a good planning for all things. even if things don't go well in the end, or you might just not enjoy your job, hey.. at least you've tried. so you won't look back one day and think, "what would happen if I took that job?" then start to regret things. as for our plan, same thing. even if things don't work out well, at least we'll have no regrets that we didn't try it at all. next difficult step would be talking to my mom. so help me God. :) i've finally filled the form for the course i'm going to take for the next semester. took the Student Project, e-commerce, Decision Support System, and stupidly enough: the Database (Advanced), without even reading first what the course is all about. pas dah baca, jeh... gue malah jadi jiper :P barusan submit ulang, tapi BasDat gue batalin, ganti ke Komas. rencana ngambil PA 1 dan Statistika Eko-Bisnis bubar di tengah jalan gara2 bentrok ama SPK, pengen mewek. terpaksa think about alot of things i have to plan next. makin ga sabar nunggu pulang besok, pengen ngobrol sama Oom Amir utk masalah CPA. gyahhh.. pening banget kalo dah taun terakhir gini, kok jadi banyak banget yg musti gue pikirin. last day official final working day in the company. feeling great this morning, dg hebatnya masih sempet2in nonton 2 eps Gilmore Girls sblm berangkat ngantor hehehe Terus pesen taksi, dan dg hebatnya... taksi gue mercedes!! Wakakakaka hoki abissss... nyaman banget tadi berangkat ke kantor. ^^ Sepagian ribet briefing utk nyiapin deployment sore ini, akhirnya beres. Skrg masih musti revisi user manual sama dokumentasi utk keperluan handover. wuhuhuhu saya senang sekali! Tonite mo ke Esplanade beli oleh2 buat Eyang, terus tauk deh mo ke mana. Toh ga panik ama packing gara2 dah nyicil dari awal minggu ini. Packing cuma puyeng di masalah overweight, ini dah hampir pasti sih kayaknya. Jatah cuma 30 kg, buset... gemanaaaa ini coba. X( a little peek for the performance last news i got dari Dimas: 2 lagu sendiri, 1 lagu L'Aruku baru judulnya "Link", plus 3 lagu L'Aruku yg lama. bismillah bismillah moga2 gue boleh ikut ama bonyok... ahhh tak sabar pulang! ^_^ Tuesday, August 23, 2005
mungkin emang kehendak Tuhan juga kali yah.. *sigh*it's official... 24 hours tanpa rokok *ngibarin bendera putih*.. gue senewen banget. - tadi pagi dah bikin plan. first effort: ke NTUC di Junction8. kalo blon buka, ya udah buru2 ke Somerset terus sempetin mampir ke 7-11. - sesuai dugaan, NTUC belon buka. tapi apa yg terjadi? office pass gue ketinggalan, jadi terpaksa lari ke apartemen lagi utk ngambil, terus buru2 ke kantor karena dah telat. - otomatis ga sempet ke 7-11. - makan siang tadi farewell sama colleagues. kesimpulan: jelassss.. ga bisa merokok. - jam 4 tadi, dah senewen buanget. akhirnya memutuskan ke 7-11. grabbed my coin-wallet, hp, duit S$ 15 (buat kopi jg soalnya), terus rushed ke sana. sampe sana apa yang terjadi? dia ga percaya gue dah 21 tahun, ngotot minta ID yg jelas2 gue tinggal di kantor. AAAAAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!! Ya Tuhan, hambamu memohon ampun.. X( remember the last time i said that it called for a shopping spree? i meant it. *wide wide grin* so last weekend, the balance in my account dropped about S$ 800 down after i spent 5 hours on the Orchard Road and Raffless City *rotfl* man, now /that/'s what i call shopping. S$ 550 is actually for the digicam my mom asked to buy, and the rests... well my close friends can be happy as i was buying things for them. this always happen when i go abroad. i'll come home with huge suitcases filled with all stuff i'm going to give my friends, then realizing that i bought little or even nothing for myself. well it's not gonna happen this time, brutha! as i'm going shopping today for myself! hahahaha oh cuma 1 sih, dwiiii... gue ga beliin elu oleh2 gpp yah? kan elu jg baru dari sini, gue malah jadi bingung mo ngasi elu apa. perasaan toko2 yg udah gue jamah, elu jg udah ngejamah pas dateng last weekend. ato mo cokelat ajah? terus buat bima, bo, gue dah ngasi elu kado ulang taun blon sih? gue akhirnya beliin elu kado, tapi terus inget2 lagi, kok perasaan gue dah ngasi elu kado sblm gue berangkat X) getting near to going home 3 days left. man, now it surely feels really fast. to think that i've been whining to go home for the past month. i'm very glad to say that the system's finally really done. and considering there's only 3 days left, i pray to God that there won't be any extra user-requirements. this whole internship thing is a big major experience, at least it's far more memorable than the last one I had. i mean, this time i finally got assigned to a project all by myself, dealing with users that although they went to be quite irritating in the beginning (i wonder why can't users just stick with the requirements they said in the first place?), in the end some of them have become friends with me. it happened after i emailed them late in the evening, telling them some changes i've made according to the last meeting we had. one of them went to be surprised knowing that i was still in the office on those hours and shooed me to go home. i told her that if i didn't finish it, i wouldn't be able to sleep well at night. and that's when we started to talk as friends instead of a client and a developer. then the working itself. man... i gotta admit, although there'll just be times when i get really stressed out and frustrated with the project (remember the breakdown i had?), i'm enjoying every single minute of it! it's just the tension, the stress, the pressure, the challenge, everything! every single part of the workaholic & perfectionist side of me is feeling alive all along these 2 months. you have no idea how thrilling it feels to me to get up early in the morning, reaching the office on the hours when there weren't even anyone in my department, and going home when there's only 1-2 people left, getting things done before the deadline that i still have time to do things they didn't even ask for, yeow... this might just sound really pathetic, but /that/'s the exact idea i had all these years of me working. i surely prefer /this/ than going to campus hahahaha and what's best is the fact that i'm earning my own money (which is pretty huge if bring 'em back to Indonesia, alhamdulilllahirabbil alamin..), and i can go shopping like crazy whenever i want to! *lol* i guess girls will always be girls. my dearest cousin would be coming tomorrow, really can't wait as we owe eachother so many stories & i even have plans for us which i just need to be spilled out ASAP. it's been interrupting my sleep, that's why. i don't know, the whole experience here is just making me to think so much of what i wanna do for the next years. i made myself promised to restrain myself from taking projects on the next semester. and guess what, i just made a list and i'm engaged to 5 projects already. good God, the semester hasn't even started yet! the latest one i got was extremely thrilling, which is the reason why i need to see my cousin really soon. if we're gonna get serious with this, boy.. the distance (she in US, and i'm in Indo) would be a major issue. but oh well, we'll see about that later on. i'm not sure if she'll get as excited, but her dad, her little sister, and me couldn't stop talking about it ever since we came up with that idea. ^^ as for the grades pretty disappointed with PPM and Anaperancis, like i said previously. but what the heck, what's done is done, right? i've calculated my GPA, it's still going pretty good, i guess. so i'm satisfied with everything. it feels kinda weird actually to maintain the GPA and at the same time realizing that i don't really like the major i'm taking now. i mean, all my plans ahead has never got anything to do with the IT field. not that i'm throwing it all away though, surely i don't want to spend these 4 years for nothing. but i'd probably use it for something else, which is why the IT Auditing field seems to be very appealing at the moment, other than the Risk/Security Management. but who knows, things might change in the few years ahead. GILAAAA... TINGGAL SETAUN LAGIIII... BUEHHHHHH.... marriage.... hmmmmmm? it's a habit that i just can't stop. i'd plan things. things i do, my life, my r'ship, everything. so one thing i'd hate is obviously when things are going unpredictable and not as they were planned. when it comes to work, i can tolerate that. hey, it's all about the risk & the challenge, isn't it? but when it comes to r'ships, bah. the wound is hard to heal everytime something goes wrong. far harder than when something goes wrong at work, for example. maybe this is actually one of the reasons why i don't really like the idea of getting married, and why i would firmly agree on prenupts. i can't afford to lose so many things i've worked for just incase things weren't go as planned. and let's face it, r'ship is the last thing you can predict on how it'll end. i actualy found an article this morning, interesting one for me: "Traditions of love and marriage are nice. But reading all the letters and various discussions on the matter, I am tempted to say - and I know that this will cause controversy - that there is nothing to recommend marriage to a man. Looking back, almost all my friends regret the act of marriage. Given a second chance, most would rather cohabit - not least because the legal consequences are less serious. The concept of marriage was intended to protect women: It does nothing for the man. But times have changed and with the growing affluence of women, there is no longer a need for a man to provide for a woman. Is it time for the concept of marriage to be done away with, and be replaced with a contract where both parties negotiate the terms of their cohabitation? Even to the extent where each party may have an allowable number of affairs a year?" (Letter from Wilson Wong at TODAY Tuesday, 23 August 3005) *lol* would you believe that i even had the very same disccusion with a couple of girl friends on this matter? and the last line wilson said, that was the exact idea i had in mind! you see, i've been thinking for a while. if men just have the nature of not getting satisfied with one woman (especially when she already gave birth and all that), and that the second puberty is considered something normal for all men to experience, shouldn't we just lower our expectations for men to be loyal? i mean, if we know they won't be loyal anyway, then maybe we can just come up with an allowable number of affairs each one can have? and on the other hand, although this just won't be a thing i'd do as my religion forbids me, i agree that cohabit is perhaps a better option. you don't depend to eachother, you won't risk your wealth just incase a divorce is happening, you know.. those kind of things. i've had numerous of close friends resenting the idea of getting married for these reasons (and yes, all of them are guys), and the reason is that they have happier lives this way (casual dates, casual sleeping partners, open relationships, no strings attached, etc.). and the few who in the end decided to get married anyway, preferred not to have kids or even doesn't mind to live apart from their wives (the wife's in Bangkok, he's in Jakarta, and such). when i ask one of them of what's the advantage of getting married, he took a real while until he answered, "well... now i don't have to pay for visas when i want to see my wife!". and that's the reason to get married? *grins* i know that this is quite a controversial opinion i have, but it's just an opinion anyway. having so many friends alike, all successful in career and in the end becoming people i look up to, manage to mold me to think this way. that, plus Sex and The City. plans plans plans still wondering if taking CPA is a must if wanna switch majors. i prefer not to, considering Larry's experience when he was about to take one. i might ask him this tomorrow when we meet for a drink. then i still have to ask Oom Amir for the same matter, he asked if I'm interested in running his company if I were about to switch major *wide grin* liat2 ntar ya, Oom! kalo sukses di akuntansi sih ayokkkk bangeet! the next meeting for the DebConf team would be on Sept 3rd, i-spots team on Sept 10th, the SP team would be sometime around next week I suppose, 56production err.. i have to schedule this one. the business plan with my cousin might just go on Thursday night over coffee. gyahhhh.. i am SO wanting to graduate soon! last note, i haven't touched a cigarette for the past 18 hours, a new record of the month for yours truly. kemaren dah batang terakhir yang gue punya, pas pulang kemaren malem ga beli lagi for no reason. ga tau yah, lucu jg tiba2 ga kerasa kepengen ajah. pas malem sih senewen banget, terus maksa langsung tidur biar ga kepikiran. tadi pagi juga sami mawon, dah senewen terus maksa langsung ngopi aja terus naek ke kantor. huahhhh... let's see if this can last for 24 hours hehehehe Friday, August 19, 2005
paycheck day!this calls for a shopping spree!!!! ^___________________________________^ *alarm's ringing* *looked at the cell-phone* 6.30 AM *repositioned myself on the bed* *3 mins in silence* *somehow sensed something wrong* *looked at the cell-phone again* 7.32 AM WHAT?!!!!!! so ladies and gentlemen, i overslept for an hour. mandi bebek, trus langsung ngebut ke stasiun sambil kelaperan. heheh good thing i arrived at the office on time. not much to write this morning, cuma mo bersyukur sama kebaikan pak stef senantiasa sepanjang masa. alhamdulillaaaaah.... tinggal SIA nih, duh apa kabarnya yak.. Thursday, August 18, 2005
lupa bilang! buat yang suka film Korea dan betah nonton dengan mata basah, nonton "STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN"!!!! alur awal2nya sih lamban banget, gue jg sering nge-fast forward karena toh ga usah didengerin masih ngerti, wong tinggal baca subtitle. tapiii.. begitu 2 episode terakhir, parah.. gue nangis ampe sesengukan. tissue dah bikin tong sampah penuh. terakhir gue nonton film ampe sesengukan tuh pas "I Am Sam", tapi ini sih bener2 gilaaaaa... benapas aja ampe susah hahahahahawuehehhhh.. tinggal 6 dari 20 perubahan, tapi ini malah yg major semua, maboggg... "Sunday morning rain is falling..." except that I gotta change that "Sunday" to "Thursday" *grins* yup, this morning's weather's gooood. all cloudy & no sunshine, just the way i want it to be. so i guess it's been a good & interesting morning. woke up at 6.30 to do my morning prayers, felt far better than last night. last night i arrived at the apartment feeling all sick & extremely tired, i don't know why. so i spent about 2 hours just lying down on the sofa watching TV, "Charmed" was showing. then walked slowly to the bathroom and took a shower, then back to the sofa to watch about 20 minutes of "Unbreakable" and all i knew was that when i opened my eyes it was 3.30 in the morning, TV's still on, the lights are still on. boy, i sure was tired, i suppose. back to this morning, ordered my usual coffee plus toast as i'm running out of breakfast at the apartment. went to the smoking area downstairs and had my breakfast. what's so good about having coffee/cig breaks there is that i get to meet and have conversations with people i barely know, and it always ends up to be an interesting conversation. after several days with the guy i mentioned on the previous posting, this morning i chatted with this lady. i dunno, maybe she's quite stressed or something, coz then she started to talk to me about her house-problems. her problems with kids, how she's being called a "lousy mom" *lol* well that's interesting. although it encouraged me even more to /not/ have kids. :P done with everything, i went to the office. still empty as usual, turned on the PC. and guess what? my project's user came! aje gilaaaaaa... masih pagi ini nehhh... dia ngasi list perubahan2 yang dia minta, along with the notes and stuff. what a morning. 16? anyway, it happened TWICE!!!! so that couldn't be coincidences! i'm talking about the thing of me looking 16. yesterday as i was on my way to the MRT station, there was this guy taking surveys about shopping malls in Orchard Road. he asked whether i'm a tourist/PR/whatever, my fave mall, etc. then it came to the last question: my age. there were 4 options, i only remembered the first two: a) Below 25. b) 25-35. and here was the conversation: me: "Below 25" the guy: "Oh of course. I've thought that you are very young. You're 16?" me: "ohohohoho (membayangkan adegan gue tertawa sambil menutup mulut gaya manga), no, I'm 21." WAKAKAKAKAKAK! DUA KALI, SODARA2!! asli.. gue tinggal di sini aja deh. and btw, dulu tu yang mulai bikin elu2 manggil gue "Nenek" tu siapa yah? Gue yakin kalo ga rully sih pasti bima, siapa lagi coba kalo gak? some thoughts i'm not sure if i really wanna go home now. kalo lagi stress sih emang pengen banget pulang, ngerasain empuknya kasur rumah dan makanan bergizi. but i dunno, the li'l sis been sms-ing me asking when will i be back. this /never/ happened before, so my guess is that there might just be some problems she's facing with people at home. terus baru inget kalo dia sekarang kelas 1 SMA, ohhh yeah, definitely the age when i had tons of problems. yang kayak begini neh yang bikin ga pengen pulang, gue pulang pengennya kan istirahaaaaaatttt... bukan malah terlibat sama masalah2 orang. hu-uh.. time to start working now. ciao. Wednesday, August 17, 2005
the minute after the UAT....i was back on my seat, and start go through all the codes again. jadi ceritanya, UAT gue berjalan dg suksesnya selama 3.5 jam. dari masih semangat ampe dah sempoyongan. yang dibahas juga ga keruan ngalor-ngidul. ya bayangin aja, masa' policy perusahaan klien dibahas pas lagi UAT review? gue tinggal geleng2 doang.. in the end, cukup senang karena secara fungsional semua berjalan 100% dg baik, sesuai requirements. yang bikin tidak senang: requirements nongol lagi. dan gue diharapkan kelar sebelum gue pulang tanggal 26 nanti. bahkan di hari terakhir, flight gue jam 7 malem, jam 3 sore masih ada meeting sama direktur perusahaannya. masya Allohhh.. masa' iya sih gue perlu bawa koper ke kantor. hoahhhhhhhhhhh... cuapeeeee... yang nyakitin ati banget sih dokumentasi ama manual. dokumentasi utk kperluan hand over sih dah kelar 2 hari yang lalu, manual malah dari minggu lalu. tapi gara2 ada req baru nambah tadi, terpaksa bongkar lageeeee... hoyoh hoyoh hoyoh.. dan gaji gue bulan ini blon masuk. hiks hiks hiks.. pulang ah.. kept on stumbling to this guy everytime i took my coffee break. we'd chat and joke around, but i never knew his name. interesting and very encouraging opinion he had when he said that GPAs don't matter that much in the real world. hahah! finally something nice i get from the real world *grins* he finally gave me his name card, something that i might just need when i graduate (hopefully) next year. ^^ quite a nice mood i have today, other than my achin' thighs (man.. that last class was a real hell..). managed to sleep at 12 last night, woke up feeling groggy but finally went okay after my first cup of coffee. still dealing with the internship report for the school, i sure am wondering how many pages i'd end up with, cause so far it's reaching 30 pages and it's only the Initial Analysis & Theory Foundations (terjemahan bebas dari Landasan Teori hehehe). the UAT review will be held today, hope everything's good. other than that, been spending too much time thinking. all these coincidences (my way to define time's tricks) & signs, could they be just that, or is there something more? i sure hate unpredictable situations. kebanyakan mikir ga sehat. Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Lousy morning. with a capital L. feeling like Garfield when I woke up.didn't manage to sleep until 2 AM, even had a really unhealthy solution to finally put myself to sleep. thought of not going to the office, but the idea of doing nothing at the apartment was a faaaaar worse idea. so dragged myself to the shower, got dressed (lagi mikir2 ni baju mo gue pake sidang KP ahh..), then grabbed a cab and rushed to the office. 2 shots of espresso with a dollop of lowfat milk, hope this will keep me awake. anyway, too many thoughts going in my head as i was trying to sleep last night (which explains why.). felt like making an imaginary things-to-do-when-I'm-back list, and the numbers just kept going. hate myself when this happens. it's like my body felt really tired, but the mind just won't stop working (remember the last time i had the dream of making programs?). bodyCombat class yesterday went to be a total crazy. 8 tracks nonstop, that female instructor was plain crazy!! this is the 2nd time ever, the first time i had such experience was last year, with Sue being the instructor. what is it with female instructors? they happen to just enjoy torturing us hahahaha but it went to be really great. i got all red and soaked with sweat when i got out of the class. felt happy though, the thought of burning all those calories, yeay! finally last thought of my grades, oh well.. what's done is done. i'm so not planning of retaking the course, so let the grades be just the way they are. although this means that i have to work harder on the next semester. bah.. IPS ga cum laude lagi deh.. :( to bima, man.. i really am gonna pay you back on those grades. nge*e.. giliran kuliah yang banyak poci2nya asli deh.. elu jagoan banget, sompret. :P to bayu, sorry that i haven't got the time to reply your email. promise i will reply it before i get back to jakarta. to eta, i haven't got back in touch with larry. but i'll let him know about the get-together plan. it'll surely be after office hours (considering you're arriving on the 24th and i'd still be working until the 26th). do you mind with either the 24th or the 25th? btw do you bring you workout clothes with you? you can accompany me to the gym on those 2 days. i can take the bodyCombat class, and you can take the bodyJam class. ^^ to didit, email gue di-replyyyyyyy... oh ya, tengkyu udah update website-nya. gue jg dah update utk event yg paling baru. tapi blon bisa nongol di Latest Event, blon masuk September soalnya. working time. me logging out. sambung lagi ntar. Monday, August 15, 2005
KUTU KUCRUTTTTTTT!!! ga boleh kayaknya ya emang seneng2 dikit, adaaaaa aja yang bikin mood rusak. APA TUH ANAP CUMA SEGITU?! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE'.... giling, dikira kita jungkir balik 1 semester kemaren kagak mo gila apa yah?! dokumentasi dah bikin mata juling, teler, ngejer2 perusahaan, asli dah..mbok ya capek2nya tuh juga diliat, ini sih kejem dina.. GYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. beuh jadi semangat bodyCombat deh, pengen nonjok orang. ppm sih... emang dah pasrah, ga tau sih segitu pantes ato nggak. rada kecewa, tapi emang pas UAS hasilnya ga memuaskan banget. mati2an ngapalin slide 2 - 3 yang banyaknya ga kira2, ehhhhhhhhhh... keluar malah slide2 yang belakangan. nasib deh. ahhhhhhhhh gue masih guedeg sama nilai Anap. utk beberapa temenku yang gue tau elu pantes dapet JAUHHHH lebih baik dari nilai lu (apalagi mengingat dokumentasi elu paling sempurna nilai2nya dari tahap 1 ampe 4), my condolences, man. gue juga bete kok. ayo ayo kita berusaha memperbaiki di semester 7 (jadi inget kata2 JP saben awal semester).. Good God, you have no idea how great it feels to finally reach one of your goals! YEAAAAYYYYYY!!! Ya Alloh, untung itu masuk 50% penilaian (dan kenapa jg ga 100%, dah lompat2 deh gue sekarang). Mood bagus mood bagus, semangat kerja semangat kerja! wahahahahahaha! =D oh and to my dearest sis, congratulations!!! i'm so happy for you & got really excited with what you got (go figure.. XD)! heheh, can't wait 4 our coffee session, surely there are loads of stories to tell *grins* fuah saya syenang.. ^______________________^ wahahahahaha ada Banzai ama Soundwave!!!! ASIK ASIK ASIK!!! AKI NO MATSURI 3 September 2005 @ Ciwalk - Bandung Acara: - Festival Kebudayaan Jepang - Fashion Show by Utsukushi - Cosplay - Bazaar - Live Bands - Peresmian Japan Bandung Community Featuring bands: - Spica - Shiroi Hana - Lucid Rain - Mochacocalatta - Junon - Prudence - Archangel - 6Ugly - Soundwave - Jetto - Banzai Starting at 11 AM, FREE ENTRANCE! Organized by : - Japan Bandung Community - Gonzo Asian Entertainment - Qbee CP : Irma (081802263426) 10 working days to go, getting pretty excited. dah tinggal 2 minggu malah jadi betah di sini hahaha anyway, only some small changes still have to be done, plus the UAT review on Wednesday. the rests are just piles of documentations, both for the company and for the faculty. almost done with the documentation for the hand-over, but haven't started even a bit for the faculty. binunnn.. kebanyakan teori yg musti diterapkan neh X( the SP discussion is getting pretty hot in my team. too many things to think about, not to mention we got some ambitious teammates (me included hahaha). anyway, can't wait for my cousin's arrival here. coffee session is truly waiting. hoi, ndun! menyusul lah awak tu ke sini! gek kito ngupi2 sambil begosip. =D yoshaaaa, back to work! Friday, August 12, 2005
this is the song I meant on that questionaire 3 entries below:Ketika (hidden track) maliq n d'essentials Ketika kurasakan sudah ada ruang di hatiku yang kau sentuh dan ketika kusadari sudah tak selalu indah cinta yang ada Mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti bilaku bukan yang ingin kau miliki salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku Adakah ku singgah di hatimu mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku adakah ku sedikit di hatimu Bilakah ku mengganggu harimu mungkinkah kau tak inginkan adaku Akankah ku sedikit di hatimu Bila memang ku yang harus mengerti mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumiliki salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku Kau yang ada di hatiku (2x) Bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti adakah diriku singgah di hatimu dan bilakah kau tau kaulah yang ada di hatiku kau yang ada di hatiku adakah ku di hatimu seperti kata prabha, serasa dilindes kereta pelan2 X) Thursday, August 11, 2005
Mastering the payoffReturn on M.B.A. investment may not be money Daniel S. Levine What's the difference between an M.B.A. from the Wharton West MBA Program for executives and one from the full-time program of San Francisco State University's College of Business Graduate Studies? About $130,000. And maybe not much else -- at least while you're in school. Thousands of people are enrolled in M.B.A. programs at 15 institutions that offer full-time, part-time or executive M.B.A. programs in the Bay Area. The curriculum varies little from one school to the next. But costs vary a lot. Students pay as little as $8,400 for a degree from San Francisco State or as much as $138,500 for one from Wharton West, which is part of the Wharton School at the University of Pennsylvania. So if you learn the same thing, why would one progam be worth $100,000 or so more than the next? What do you get for the extra hundred grand? Price of admission Students in the elite programs are paying at least in part for the pedigree, which means the recruiters drawn to the program's name and the alumni pool they'll join when they graduate. "They are part of the Wharton alumni network, and they have all of those connections and that whole Rolodex that comes with being a Wharton grad," said Howard Kaufold, director of the MBA Program for Executives at the Wharton School. "If you go to any top business school, you have a top network. We think we have one of the best." That, say some, is worth the price of admission. Mori Taheripour, managing partner of the Emeryville-based consulting firm Innovative Health Solutions Inc., graduated from Wharton West in 2003. She thought about the expense of the Wharton program before beginning it, but hasn't given it a thought since. "In a lot of ways it's already paid for itself. It just opens a lot of doors," she said. "You make a series of connections and network in ways you wouldn't be able to do otherwise." The problem is for people who aren't in one of the elite programs. For many students, the decision to get an M.B.A. is driven by the hopes for a high-paying executive position with a top employer. An M.B.A. can help with that goal, but it's no guarantee. While many of the annual surveys of M.B.A. programs now look at return on investment of the degree -- BusinessWeek offers a ROI calculator -- the question as to whether it pays to get an M.B.A. depends in large part on what someone hopes to get out of the degree. If the goal is a top-paying job with a blue-chip employer, an M.B.A. by itself is no guarantee. For some employers, the degree is starting to lose its luster. Not surprisingly, officials at the elite schools say it's the name of the institution on the diploma that makes the difference. "Recruiters at top investment banks like Goldman Sachs or Lehman Brothers or Deutsche Bank only go to the highly rated business schools," said Andrew Shogan, associate dean of the Haas School of Business at UC Berkeley. "If you want to get a job from San Francisco State to Goldman Sachs you have a shot at it, but you are going to have to send your resume in by mail and hope they take a look at it as opposed to them showing up on campus." Though graduates from Stanford University's graduate school of business earn on average more than $100,000, students from San Francisco State University earn starting salaries of about $65,000, about the mean $65,900 starting salary of all M.B.A.s in the class of 2004 reported in a survey conducted by the Graduate Management Admission Council. A few years on the job pays for the degree for elite-school graduates. But research suggests the bulk of students may be paying for phantom benefits. The pedigree that counts Jeffrey Pfeffer, a professor at the Stanford Graduate School of Business who has been an outspoken critic of the current state of graduate business education, found in a 2002 study that there is little evidence that earning an M.B.A. has much effect on a graduate's salary or career attainment. "If you don't get your degree from a top 15 school, the economic return is zero. The M.B.A. by itself means nothing," he said. "You have to have an M.B.A. from an elite, highly rated place in order for it to have a much of an economic effect." mampus lah awak... hahahaha No difference Pfeffer also found that several in-house studies conducted by consulting firms found that new hires with M.B.A.s performed no better than new hires without the degree. Instead, many employers are finding they can get as much talent hiring from other sources as they can get from M.B.A. programs, as long as they provide internal training to make sure employees have the grounding they need. That's something Wells Fargo is finding in its Licensed Banker Program. The program, launched at the start of the year, brings new hires into an entry-level position to serve a range of client needs. The position provides broad exposure to the bank's various business lines and an opportunity to advance along one of several career paths and begins with a 14-week training program. "We don't see necessarily any huge differential in the quality of the candidates that have M.B.A.s and don't," said Suzanne Ramos, senior vice president and director of Wells Fargo's Licensed Banker Academy for the San Francisco Bay Region. While she said an M.B.A. is seen as a plus, the company is more concerned about candidates' communication skills, how they value the Wells Fargo culture and their passion for delivering customer service. The bank doesn't pay M.B.A.s at higher starting salaries than non-M.B.A.s. yeaaay! Bang for the buck Stanford's Pfeffer thinks students' focus on getting a return on their investment and M.B.A. programs' compulsions with survey rankings have helped skew these programs from their academic missions. If learning -- rather than an immediate career boost -- is what a student is after, many programs that are lesser known can give plenty of bang for the buck. Kenny Dang, R&D manager at Guidant Corp., earned an M.B.A. from San Francisco State in 2004 while working in his current job. The degree hasn't gotten him a raise or a promotion. But he said he sought the degree to get a better understanding of how the business works as a whole, how decisions are made and how what he does fits into a broader strategic vision. "Even though it's not like I got my M.B.A. and I got promoted three levels, it does help me with my current job and allows me to better understand what it is that I do and how it impacts the business in general." Others see the degree as a useful way to make a career change. Duc Le used the M.B.A. as a way to move from working as a project manager in information technology to working in diversity planning for the human resources department of a retail grocer. He said even though he's making about the same salary as he did in his old job, the M.B.A. he earned from California State University East Bay distinguished him from other applicants, most of whom had certification from the Society of Human Resource Managers. "A lot of people were fascinated with the M.B.A.," he said, noting the position he took was more geared toward M.B.A.s, but that the company found them hard to attract because most people with the degree want to go into finance or accounting. "They said they found me a lot more analytical than their HR professionals." Daniel S. Levine is a reporter for the San Francisco Business Times. Wednesday, August 10, 2005
*smiles* it's interesting how assumptions and guesses can bring people to misunderstandings, or even things they /want/ to believe.fuih.. senangna.. dah ketemu semua bug2 ee' yg bikin puyeng kepala beberapa minggu. *liat kalender* yeaaaay.. 2 minggu lagi! ^^ apa kabar KP kalian, teman2ku? got this from ndroti's blog. so while waiting for the files-copying process to finish, might just fill this up (sebagian gue potong, Sinds. panjang banget sih lagian): 1. if you were a prostitute, how much do you think would you charge per hour? Rp 1 million? hey, i might just worth that much! XD 2. if God would come down and say 1 thing to you, what would you want to hear from Him? "You're going to heaven." 3. What is the most incredible thing a friend has ever done for you? Came to my place just to give me comfort the minute I called her and said that I needed a shoulder to cry on. 4. If a stranger should come to you and whisper something in your ear, what do you want it to be? "You're beautiful." hahahahahahaha gila.. ini sih questions yang memicu narcisme. 5. If your life could be described in just one song, what would it be? I can't think of any. Life's been too interesting to be described in just one song. :P 6. What is you most valuable posession that you think you can't live without? my handphone & PDA. 7. Do you have a certain line/lyrics of a song that remind you of a certain experience in the past? if yes, what is it? "For good times and bad times, I'll be on your side forever more. That's what friends are for." huu huuu... kangen teman2kuw.. 8. If you could eliminate one day from your past so that you never had to live through it, which day would you erase? The day I told some friends that I had a crush on this one guy (who in the end turned to be my first boyf), back when I was in the 4th grade. It was too embarassing. 9. If you can rely on only ONE person you know for a tough and difficult situation, who would you pick? my big brother bear, oniichan ichiban! 10. If you were to lose one of your 5 senses, what would you choose to throw away? Lidah tu apa yah? Indera perasa? Pokoknya itu lah. I don't mind eating without tasting anything. 11. Have you ever been in a quarrel you now regret because it's not worth it? If yes, when and what was it about? Banyak sih kayaknya, tapi semuanya personal. :P 12. Have any of your friends did something that you haven't been able to forgive (or forget)? If yes, what is it? Dropped the friendship just like that. No logical reason, no explanation. 13. If your house were to be haunted by the ghost of one person from history, who would you wish it to be? Can I make it two? It'll be John Lennon & George Harrison. heheh. 14. If you had to choose the best song ever composed, which one would it be? It'll change from time to time. But to me now, it's the hidden track of maliq's first album (forgot the title). 15. If you had to change or choose religions, which would you select? Islam obviously. If I have to change, mmm... Catholic would be my second option. Hey, I love Christmas! ^^ 16. If you had to change your race, what would you want to be? Japanese? 17. If you could spend the night with ONE famous person presently alive, who would you pick? VIN DIESEL!!!! 18. If you only have 10 minutes to live, what would you do? Sholat Tobat. 19. if you were given an hour to shop unlimited amount of money, where/what would you buy? All things I want at the Plaza Indonesia heheh. 20. if you were kidnapped and allowed only a 1minute phone call, who would you call? Mom. 21. if you could choose the way you die, how would you die? In the middle of my prayers. 22. If your plane was about to crash and you had time to write one quick note, to whom would you write, and what would you say? To well-obviously-you-can-guess, "Luv u. Take care." :) kerja ah... Monday, August 08, 2005
GIRLDestiny's Child [Beyonce] Take a minute girl, come sit down And tell us what's been happening In your face I can see the pain Don't you try to convince us that you're happy (yeah) We've seen this all before But he's taking advantage of the passion Because we've come too far For you to feel alone You don't let him walk over your heart I'm telling you [chorus] Girl, I can tell you've been crying And you needing somebody to talk to Girl, I can tell he's been lying And pretending that he's faithful and he loves you Girl, you don't have to be hiding Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls Don't you know that we love ya [Kelly] See, what y'all don't know about him Is I can't let him go because he needs me It ain't really him, it's stress from his job And I ain't making it easy I know you see him bugging most of the time But I know deep inside, he don't mean it It gets hard sometimes But I need my man I don't think y'all understand I'm telling you [chorus 2x] [Michelle] (Girl) girl, take a good look at yourself He got you going through hell We ain't never seen ya down like this What you mean, you don't need us to help We known each other too well I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls And don't you know we love ya Yeah [chorus 2x] pengen beli albumnya di Jakarta, di sini myahal.. dan kenapaaaa pake acara ni grup bubar?? X( [x] a cup of coffee [x] cigarette [x] soul mp3s [x] "cheer up" sms-es from a dear friend (i owe u everything, man.) i sure am ready to work now. :) woohooh, 14 working days to go! ^^ Friday, August 05, 2005
T.G.I.F!after getting through one hell of a week, man.. how I just luv fridays. am currently done with the revisions (would you believe that there's another change they asked /today/??), and been working on the user manual. now /this/ is the part i enjoy doing. can't make anything fancy though, afraid that the file size would be too big whilst this manual will be sent through email-attachments (i suppose?). printing it would be a better idea i think, but might need a lot of papers. already on the 33rd page, and still going. but who am i to talk, it's gonna be their choices anyway ^^ haven't gone to the gym for the whole week, but tummy's getting flat as i kept on skipping dinners hehehe i even am wearing a size M for Giordano t-shirt now, woohoo! now /that/'s an improvement *wide grin* oh well, just a quick note. gotta go back to work, don't wanna come home late tonite. Wednesday, August 03, 2005
BLE'E!!!!!asli sakit.. sumpah user minta ditempeleng semua. perasaan revisi kemaren aja blon kelar, masi 3 poin lagi, dan ini dah jam 7 lewat, kantor dah kosong dan AC dah mati. eeeeeeeeehhhh masih pake nambah lagi. DASAR KENTUT! alhamdulillahi rabbil alamiiiin... menyesallah kalian yang tidak mengambil PLBO! :) wekekekekekeke.. terus ya masa' tadi ada US-Taiwan guy (muka Asia, tapi ngomong logat US maksud gue), ngajak ngobrol over coffee pas gue lagi break bentar dari kerjaan. and whaddaya know.. him: *muka mikir* "are you old enough to smoke?" me: *laughs* "yes, i'm 21." him: "ohh.. i thought you were 16." I LOOK SIXTEEN!!! YEAAAAHHH!!!! itu salah satu kabar terindah sepanjang gue hidup!!! gila... you hear that, people (nengok ke temen2 kampus gue yang senantiasa mencela dan manggil gue "nenek", tapi gue sayaaang sama lo semua hehehe)?! i look freakin' 16!!! wuahahahahahahaha :D ohhh.. teringat masa lalu... back then.. setting: coffee counter di Marche Movenpick upon my 6th cup, coffeeguy: *mulai centil* "kuliah di mana, mbak?" me: "saya masih sekolah." *mulai bete* coffeeguy: "oh ya? kelas berapa?" me: "kelas 3." coffeeguy: "3 sma? sma-nya di mana?" me: "saya masih SMP!" np: Astrud Gilebrto/Stan Getz - Corcovado a breakdown was all i needed so i did. trigger-nya dah lebih dari cukup utk bikin gue ga bisa lagi nahan emosi yang dah kelayapan sebulan ke belakang. dimulai dari some personal issues, ditambah dengan pertemuan mendadak dengan user kemarin. so i just got back from downstairs, buying my usual afternoon coffee. baru nyampe, duduk dan siap balik ke dokumentasi, tau2 bapak team leader nyamperin bilang kalo sekitar 5 menit yg lalu users pada dateng dan rapat. ngibrit lah gua nyusul ke ruang rapat, supervisor langsung hepi nyuru gue masuk. dan jadilah itu pertemuan sekitar 2 jam, hasilnya apa, kawan2? seperti bisa diduga, requirements nambah bejibun. nambah sampe titik bahkan gue musti ngubah database design. dg cantiknya, senin gue dah masuk UAT, meaning that semua perubahan yang mereka minta harus kelar dalam 3 hari. tiap kali ada requirements nambah (i've counted, it was more than 15), level panik naek terus. begitu semua kelar, gue ampe diem mantengin kertas catetan gue. diem shock. keluar ruangan mereka ngasi waktu gue utk benerin sebagian sampe hari ini jam 4, terus mereka mo dateng, mo liat satu persatu semua feature yang ada. keluar gedung kantor, i knew that it was coming. emosi dah sampe ke ubun2, sudden panic attack milih timing untungnya bagus, dah bukan jam kerja. jadilah gue ke Kino utk beli amplop titipan oom gue sambil nahan nangis ga keruan, terus grabbed a cab yang dengan cerdasnya malah pasang lagu2 mellow. nyampe apartemen, sadar apartemen kosong seperti biasa, ngehela napas panjang, terus duduk depan TV. nyalain lampu pun nggak, TV jg gue biarin mati. all i needed was a friend to talk to. and guess what, all my friends sedang terpisah oleh laut dari gue. i was overwhelmed. nangis lah gue kayak anak kecil selama setengah jam. yang paling nyakitin emang pada bagian bahwa gue ga bisa ngomong sama siapa2. sapa coba? jendela? seterikaan?! cuma itu yang ada di sekitar gue kemarin. yang di kepala pas itu cuma gue pengen pulang. gue pengen ketemu & nangis ampe puas sama temen2 gue, pengen curhat, pengen sharing, dan ga ada orang! so there i was, looking all pathetic, sesengukan ga berenti. nyoba nelepon beberapa temen yang ga masuk2, either ga diangkat (gue baru inget sebagian lagi UAS buat SP mereka) ato hp-nya mati aja. but afterwards, by the time gue dah berenti nangis, emosi kayak yang udah abis sama sekali. kepala langsung berasa enteng banget. took a hot shower, then started working (brought some office works home), baru deh mulai berasa lega. so apparently setelah nangis, working is my way to vent. :P semua kelar, mulai lah ngebenahin apartemen, terus nonton CSI sampe jam 11.30, then went to bed. bangun pagi juga berasa seger, yang kepikiran di kepala cuma gue pengen mulai kerja secepatnya. so i rushed to the office, arriving here with a record, 7.45 AM heheh. sekarang mo blog sama check emails, then start to work. sempet pengen nyambit orang sih tadi pagi. jadi on my way to the MRT station, ada biksu lewat. ngomong panjang lebar lah bahasa Mandarin (what is with people here, gue selalu diajak ngomong Mandarin, gila.. ngerti juga cuma Huan Yi Huan Yi ama Xie Xie doang hahaha), terus ngeluarin notes isinya nama orang, terus something in Chinese, sama angka duit. ok lah, gue nangkep dia minta sumbangan. gue rada kaget pas liat tulisan2 di situ, buset.. sumbangannya ga ada yang kurang dari S$ 20. gue kasi lah S$ 10 (dah kepikiran mo ngasi S$ 2, tapi ga tegel). ehhhhhh... dia nunjukin angka 2 pake jari sambil senyum gede. SOMPRET. mo gue tarik lagi duit gue yang ada ntar dia ngajak berantem di jalan ya repot lah ya.. jadi dengan berat hati, gue keluarin S$ 10 lagi, terus mo meratap liat dompet tinggal S$ 2. dia ngasi gua gelang dg batu segede2 biji tasbih Arab. terus ber-Xie Xie ria, terus pegi. sementara gue selama jalan ke MRT ga berenti bersumpah serapah. this explain why instead of my morning coffee, i'm having a hot barley. cuma mampu beli itu, unless gue milih utk ga makan siang nanti. BAH!!!!! ya udah lah, gotta stop here. paling ga postingan jadi rada panjang hari ini hehe. to bapak tukang cheer-up, thanks. i really appreciate it. would prefer if you're here though, jadi instead of nangis2 sambil baca sms lu, mending jg gue nangis depan lu kan? hahahaha but really, once again, thanks. lucu rasanya mengingat gue kenal elu jg cuma lewat sini, tapi kalo chat ato sms serasa dah kenal berapa taun XD to didit, GUA MO IKUT! acara paan yang di bandung? titip pesen buat arif, bilangin kenapa sms gue ga di reply. gue mo nelpon nih, menanti cerita ttg rencana jetto ke depan. terus bilangin raden, gue kagak tau nyari kertas papir sama lintingan rokok di mana. seumur2 ga pernah liat toko khusus utk rokok biar kata di jalan ato di mall. buat yang laen, bilangin gue kangen berat. gue kangen manggung, gue kangen latian, gue kangen tolol2an sama elu semua hehe Tuesday, August 02, 2005
mood jebol mak blas... cranky, frustrated, bete, all mixed together. this PMS is making things far worse.
farah di milis DD ttg L'aruku Night Awake:jetto_wadoooh... ni band gokil abis. klo udh bawain laruku *ya emang cmn bawain laruku* keren abis, dpt abis... walaupun mereka bawain bbrp lagu yang ngga hits,tp penontonnya ttp dibakaaaar booooos ama jetto!!!! TOP ABIS.... terus mrk jg bikin announce klo ini "mungkin" terakhir kali mereka bawain laruku,, krn mrk mo serius ngegarap lagu sendiri... trus dibawain deh lagunya.. keren abis!!!! jetto semoga cepat maju deh! pokoknya kali ini jetto TOP ABIS buat dijadiin band penutup eh buset... kibordisnya yang lagi di pulau seberang kok kagak dikasi tau sih.. pantesan aja tadi malem si arif minta ditele-tele. tadi diomelin ang moh di kereta hahahaha ga diomelin sih, jadi ceritanya gue lagi nge-reply sms si bapak api ini. lupa kalo keypad tone ga gue matiin, sementara gue pasang mp3 jadi ga denger apa2 lah. apparently nyonyah bule sebelah gue ini terganggu banget sama suara keypad gue. dg blodonnya, bukannya noel2 bilang supaya matiin, ato apa kek gitu yah, dia diem dan melototin hp gue. the problem is, hp gue itu pas lagi gue ketik kan di depan dada, jadi gue dg lebih blodonnya lagi salah nangkep gesture-nya. gue kira dia melototin dada gue, gila stress lah gue, lagi mikir ni orang sakit jiwa ato apa hahahahahaha Monday, August 01, 2005
BossaNova: 2CDs of chilled Brazilian Soulrecommended. *thumbs up* |
