as i was walking around at Kemang Village mock-ups with him, searching for ideas on renovating his house (which might be my future home), it finally struck me. Oh good God, it feels so weird that i'm reaching this stage. i was there looking at the furnitures, picturing the right color for the walls, the bed sheets that would fit that color, then i checked the size of the closet and wondered if both his clothes & mine would fit.
then as we were flipping through house-interior magazines' pages, he looked at me and said "this is freaky. doing this with you."
which i reckon would be one of the happiest & memorable months in my life.
the engagement it took him what.... 3 proposals until i said yes? i turned down the first two, not because i didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him, but because it felt surreal.
i am that girl. that girl who ran away from relationships once it showed signs of the guy wanting to settle down, that girl who quickly said no to the idea of having kids, that girl who never have the typical girls' dreams of "my perfect wedding", that girl who always brushes off the idea of getting married below 29.
i am that girl.
so imagine the dillema i faced when i felt so sure about him, when i have "the" hunch (that my mom always talked about) that i'd be spending the rest of my life with this guy, when for the first time i do want to get married, and yet the relationship was only going for a month. he proposed for the first time on the 11th day of our relationship, which i quickly turned down because i thought that that was crazy.
i said yes on january 1st, 2009.
well not exactly a "yes"-yes. the precise words were "i want to spend the rest of my life with you." (and there goes the "aaaawwwww" moment).
so yeah, that broke my pattern. my pattern of running away, that is. because this time, as weird (even to me) as this may sound, i'm perfectly sure that he's the guy. and that never happened before. it reaches a point when i don't even care about the wedding date. it might as well be tomorrow or 2 years from now, it really doesn't matter because i know he's the person i'm going to spend the rest of my life with.
not long after that, he took the liberty to inform my parents that he wanted to have "the" talk. so they all did, for 2 hours, without me. that was 2 hellish hours because i thought how long would it really take just to say "hi. you already know me, so let's make this simple, i wanna marry your daughter." 3 minutes? 5 minutes? but nooooo... it just had to be 2 hours. they called me finally to join the conversation about setting up the wedding date, and by then i knew that the 2 hours were spent by talking about my family background, me, and my ex-boyfriends. (d'oh. i have no clue why did that last topic had to take place.)
well anywaaay, the engagement was held on March 29th, 2009. obviously wasn't my idea. if it were up to me, it would be just akad, and that's it. lots and lots of hassle is the last thing i need. but my big family still keep the Palembang culture in any way they can, so Mutus Kato or the "official proposal" had to take place.
so yes, i'm engaged now. :)
the wedding is still far in December, and i'm still trying my best to keep the reception small. i have no clue if it's even possible to have only 300 guests, but that is truly my hope. i'm so not planning to stand for hours and hours giving the typical AE-smile when i'd infact be exhausted.
the probation i passed my probation, so am finally a permanent employee at Rapp. and i'm finally getting my business card, woohoo!
time flew really quick. it feels like it hasn't been long since i was trying to familiarize myself with the terms "ATL", "BTL", "treatment", "exercise", "brief", "desired response", "filler", "bumper", etc. and yet now i've started to meet the clients on my own, i make my own reports, and i DO get those terms *lol* clients' requests have never stopped to amaze me, let alone their responses & feedbacks. i do enjoy everything about my job though. the colleagues are extremely fun & it's like a big happy family, i can wake up a bit late, the client's tough & challenging (and obviously a good portfolio), i get new knowledge every week.
working hour's finally bearable. i suppose in the beginning it was really tough because it was one heavy heavy planning for all activities throughout this year. so there goes the detailed planning, detailed budgeting, detailed project analysis, and hence the long hours.
now i go home after 9 PM only 2 nights at most in a week ^_^
being 25. the huge 25 has finally passed. other than the feeling of “old” whenever i say “25” out loud, it’s actually no difference. despite the infamous 25, this year’s birthday actually felt nothing. i was working as usual, had a small dinner with my family & my baby dear, and that was pretty much it. then 12 AM passed and it was already April 1st.
so… yeah, i’m 25 now. and engaged. and oh how that feels really weird.
this is officially my first post this year. hahah!
Do you remember me? I sat upon your knee I wrote to you with childhood fantasies Well, I'm all grown-up now Can you still help somehow? I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish My grown-up Christmas list Not for myself, but for a world in need
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts Every man would have a friend That right would always win And love would never end This is my grown-up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth? Maybe only in that blind belief can we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts Every man would have a friend That right would always win And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list This is my only lifelong wish This is my grown-up Christmas list
the past 1 month has been nothing but a true roller-coaster ride. i submitted my application for ANU on Oct 26th, 2008, during the Australian education exhibition. starting 2 weeks after, i emailed IDP every single week, checking whether they got any news about my application. only to get the same reply over and over again "we haven't heard anything from them, but we will contact you as soon as we got some news."
December 1st, i officially quit from my former office. only after a week being unemployed, i started to go mental. i could NOT stand doing nothing. anyone who knows me well would've known that i don't deal well with long holidays. i hate 'em. my bestfriends were being angels, they submitted my CV to their offices knowing my frustration over doing nothing, landing me 2 interviews. one to KPMG as a graphic designer (don't even ask, that position wasn't anything that i have in mind), the other one was to Rapp Collins as an Account Executive.
the one on Rapp Collins was a total coincidence. i was picking up my bestfriend, Dila, at her office. when i got there, she told me that she was still meeting her boss, but it was an informal meeting so she told me that i should just join her. i was sitting there while she was chatting with her boss, then she introduced me saying "She has a Computer Science background, so if you do have questions about computers, you should ask her!" *LOL* anyway, her boss was telling me that her flashdisk got a trojan in it, and she needed to retrieve her vacation pictures. i told her that she should try to put it on a Mac, retrieve the files, then reformat the flashdisk. at least i thought it was worth the shot.
then we started to talk, and she was asking me about what i do, etc. etc. not so long after she looked me and said, "I think we can do something with you,". she picked up the phone and contacted i-don't-know-who, saying "Do you still need someone for the Account Executive position? I got an interesting lady in front me. Can you please set up an interview with her?"
np: George Benson - This Masquerade
i sent my CV the day after, and got a follow up the following week, telling me that i was going to have an interview.
i went through the interview. i was just being me, totally clueless about advertising & communication and not even trying to look smart. i did tell them about my previous job etc. i got out of the interview feeling that i failed it. nonetheless, on my way home i decided to stop by at IDP.
just when i arrived there, i told them who i was and the rep told me to sit down. then the big news came, "We got the news a couple of days ago. I was going to contact you but was so busy that I haven't had the chance. Your application wasn't processed."
talk about unexpected turn of events.
i asked her about how could that even happened. i asked how about the other applicants, who also applied on that exhibition. she told me that all applications were being sent in 1 batch, but "OOPS!" mine was the only one that wasn't processed. they resubmitted my application, but she told me that i would most likely get the news by mid-January considering Dec 19th is the last working day before the long holiday.
np: Diana Krall - Jingle Bells
that happened 2 weeks ago, and that was pretty screwed. i rethought about everything again. tried to be realistic and thinking about how slim my chance was. first of all, my application was really late, and if they have a quota then i'm screwed. secondly, if i do get an offer letter by January, i haven't taken care of my visa.
ohkay, double jeopardy.
my boyf who's being such a dear kept on asking about my priorities. whether i really wanna go to school or whether i wanna go to work. i told him that going to school is and has always been in my plan. however, the timing doesn't really matter for me, as long as i'm not too old when i start the program. i only applied solely to ANU because it was some sort of a lucky draw. if i do get it, i go. but if i don't, it'll also be fine because i can try again the year after.
so backup plan.. backup plan... i was thinking about what to do next, because THAT surely wasn't something i expected.
np: Fourplay - The Christmas Song
a week ago dila called me, telling me that she accidentally met one of my interviewers from Rapp Collins. another unexpected turn, they liked me. she asked if dila can persuade me to take the job. so i called that same day, letting them know about my situation. i told them that i was very much interested about the job, so i tried to bargain about the salary.
2 days ago, they called me back, telling me that they couldn't give me the number i requested considering i don't have any background in communication/advertising. valid argument. but there would be 3 months probation, so we'll see what'll happen after that.
took me the whole night to think about it, and lengthy discussions between me and my parents. basically they knew that i'd be going to school anyway, it's just a matter of when. i told them that i can still try again next year, either for ANU or for other schools (NUS & NTU seems to be quite good options, 1-year-only program), but chances like this might not come twice. it's a good international company and this is a field that i'm clueless about so it'll be extremely challenging.
a decision was made, based on the discussions and my gut feeling. i decided to take the job.
yesterday i called them, letting them know that i've decided to take the job and they invited me to come over this afternoon to be introduced to my future team.
around 10 this morning, IDP called me. i'm accepted at Australian National University.
at this point i can only say that God has a very weird sense of humor, and that i'm one lucky girl. alhamdulillah.